it says january and i got scared
i cannot believe it is already january. that is insane. i am updating again because i am bored and have no one to talk to. i spend the last 20 minutes reading old entries i've written. there's a lot of them i wish i could take back. mostly the ones about dave. i wish i wouldn't have spent so much time thinking about him, worrying about him, and even talking about him. i think that it would have made it easier if i didn't do that stuff. but hey, that's in 2004. this is 2005. this is my year. i am done typing about various boys. there's this post i read that said i needed a change so i was going to date more people. well..that fucked everything up. right now there is only one person i am interested in. well...maybe 2. one is this kid from school but we are too good of friends to ever want to be anything more than that. the other one is will. he's in kansas city though. so that really sucks. maybe this means that i can get my life organized and focus on school and my job (and finding a new one) i want to go to avila university. but will probably end up at bccc first. that's okay. thats all for now. mamas on her way home, so i shall get ready for work.
peace
peace