2003-2004
june 1st 2003: the greatest day of my life thus far.
the summer of 2003 was the greatest summer of my life.
the months of june, july, august and part of september were the best months of my life.
the months of october, november, and december i was in denial.
january through may 2004 you were all i ever thought about. those were the months when my grades dropped, my weight rose, and i became used to the feeling of being alone. i always knew that i could never forget you. that you would be forever etched into my heart. my mind. my soul.
june 1st 2004: one of the more painful days of my life, thus far. they say memories of those you love are you be cherished and held close to your heart always. i wanted nothing more than to crush you into oblivion. i wanted to curse the day i met you. and i wanted to curse you for ripping my heart out and leaving me here without any answers. from that day on, i vowed to forget you completely.
july 26th 2004: your birthday. my warped tour. i swear everywhere i looked in that ampitheater saw you. you were everywhere. the spiked hair. the accent. the laugh. the attitude. so much for my vow of forgetting you.
august 2004: my vow to completely forget you has forever been shattered. i recieved apologies, letters, lots of phone calls, lots of messages when you knew i wasn't home, and even a dozen red roses. i got the warm feeling back in my heart--the same feeling of summer 2003.
september 2004: more letters, more phone calls, and more talks of the future. you kept me up until all hours of the night talking my head off and i loved every minute of it. you made me laugh like i haven't laughed in such a long time and you gave me back the hope of being with you. of being able to be happy again.
october 2004: you say you're coming down in november. we plan, and talk, and laugh, and plan some more. we think about everything, we dream about everything, and every night i went to sleep with a smile on my face.
november 2004: i ask you to come in january and you say you'll come but you're still coming in november. i tell you thats a shitty way to spend thanksgiving, without your family, and you agree, but since then, you seem distracted. i wish i could take back november, have this be the november 1st, and only have 19 days until you're here. i want you to come so badly it hurts. but i can't take any of that back.
right now you're on a plane to florida. i know that the trip is on bad terms, but i hope you have a great time anyway, seeing your family. and please don't ever forget what you mean to me. please understand that january is going to be so much better than november ever could be. i worry about you a lot, and i hope you know that if you ever, ever need anything or anybody, ill be here (or there) no matter the circumstances.
there's my timeline im using to pass my time until my test. sorry to type it out. i just find comfort in knowing it's there. or something.
the summer of 2003 was the greatest summer of my life.
the months of june, july, august and part of september were the best months of my life.
the months of october, november, and december i was in denial.
january through may 2004 you were all i ever thought about. those were the months when my grades dropped, my weight rose, and i became used to the feeling of being alone. i always knew that i could never forget you. that you would be forever etched into my heart. my mind. my soul.
june 1st 2004: one of the more painful days of my life, thus far. they say memories of those you love are you be cherished and held close to your heart always. i wanted nothing more than to crush you into oblivion. i wanted to curse the day i met you. and i wanted to curse you for ripping my heart out and leaving me here without any answers. from that day on, i vowed to forget you completely.
july 26th 2004: your birthday. my warped tour. i swear everywhere i looked in that ampitheater saw you. you were everywhere. the spiked hair. the accent. the laugh. the attitude. so much for my vow of forgetting you.
august 2004: my vow to completely forget you has forever been shattered. i recieved apologies, letters, lots of phone calls, lots of messages when you knew i wasn't home, and even a dozen red roses. i got the warm feeling back in my heart--the same feeling of summer 2003.
september 2004: more letters, more phone calls, and more talks of the future. you kept me up until all hours of the night talking my head off and i loved every minute of it. you made me laugh like i haven't laughed in such a long time and you gave me back the hope of being with you. of being able to be happy again.
october 2004: you say you're coming down in november. we plan, and talk, and laugh, and plan some more. we think about everything, we dream about everything, and every night i went to sleep with a smile on my face.
november 2004: i ask you to come in january and you say you'll come but you're still coming in november. i tell you thats a shitty way to spend thanksgiving, without your family, and you agree, but since then, you seem distracted. i wish i could take back november, have this be the november 1st, and only have 19 days until you're here. i want you to come so badly it hurts. but i can't take any of that back.
right now you're on a plane to florida. i know that the trip is on bad terms, but i hope you have a great time anyway, seeing your family. and please don't ever forget what you mean to me. please understand that january is going to be so much better than november ever could be. i worry about you a lot, and i hope you know that if you ever, ever need anything or anybody, ill be here (or there) no matter the circumstances.
there's my timeline im using to pass my time until my test. sorry to type it out. i just find comfort in knowing it's there. or something.