Dedicated to idiots everywhere:

Sep 26, 2006 21:14

Not a day goes by, not one single day, without some random stranger feeling the need to comment on my body.

It gets so fucking tiring. Whether it's positive or negative, I'm really sick of it. It all sounds the same to me, really. The dude whizzing by on his bike calling, "nice ass!" or the car full of guys honking/yelling incomprehensible things, or the girls tittering and whispering (not that quietly) that I have bad hair, or the random salesperson in a clothing store saying, "well, you're no size 4 but at least you have nice curves", or yet another salesperson (last week) saying "Oh, I don't think you need a large shirt, a medium would hug your boobs better". Sometimes it's more subtle.. a movement of the eyes, a facial expression, a look I'm given. It still means the same thing and has the same effect.

Honestly, I'm SO FUCKING SICK OF IT. I'm already a bundle of self-consciousness, and every comment, whether it's meant as insulting or complimentary, and whether i take it as nice or mean just draws my attention to my (percieved) physical flaws and attributes. It doesn't make me feel good or attractive.. it just makes me feel like a piece of meat.

Just because I'm a woman, or just because I'm speaking to you in a customer service capacity or just because I have a body type that some people find attractive (and others don't) or just because i'm walking by, existing, doesn't mean that your judgement and appraisal is required. What right do you have to judge and appraise me in the first place? Your comments are not required, thanks. I can figure it out on my own.

I really and truely don't understand what makes people think otherwise. I get it in my neighbourhood, I get it at school, I get it when I'm out, I get it when I go visit my parents or hirop when He's out of town for work.. I quite literally mean it when I say that not one single day goes by without this happening.

People wonder why women have such fucked up body image in western society today.. it's because they (myself included) feel like they're being judged and appraised every minute of the day, and that they have to live up to some certain standard that keeps changing and is never really clear to anyone.

Gah. I don't even know what else to say. I'm just so sick of this.

feminism, rants, emotional, body

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