Rutt-ness
I’m not happy at the moment. I don’t know what it is. I know I’m a bit lonely… not because I’m single but because everyone else has all this really good stuff happening in their lives and they are moving forward whereas I feel I’m being left behind. I’ve had the worse luck lately. Waited too long to tell boy how I felt, had a car accident and lost my car, missed uni because of injuries and have fallen behind (in only the second week). People are backing out of Thailand due to important issues such as lack of money and not so important things such as getting a new gf.
I guess I’m just jealous that everyone is getting what they want whereas everything is going badly for me. I think I need a change but I can’t think what needs changing. I know I am lucky to have a lot of good friends and I’m started to realize who the real ones are, I just want a little bit more. Waiting for things to happen - need to be proactive and make things come together for me… at least a new car might cheer me up. Hanging out but no drinking tomorrow! I wonder if theres a party on Saturday?
I guess I’m just jealous that everyone is getting what they want whereas everything is going badly for me. I think I need a change but I can’t think what needs changing. I know I am lucky to have a lot of good friends and I’m started to realize who the real ones are, I just want a little bit more. Waiting for things to happen - need to be proactive and make things come together for me… at least a new car might cheer me up. Hanging out but no drinking tomorrow! I wonder if theres a party on Saturday?