I think I'm happy...
Life......wow.
I've been extremely busy the past two weeks with the play. It is a great show, I love it, and I know it's my last at Grossmont so I should savor it; but, I can't help but just want it all to be over. Tonight is closing night, it shall be fun.
I broke down on Thursday night. I hadn't cried in a while, and I just completely broke down. I was doing double duty for the play, taking on the House Manager responsibilities along with my Assistant Director ones. That was enough stress already. But, I've done something to spite SOMEONE with some sort of cosmic power, for the dance concert was scheduled for the same night. The stupid little dance girls were screaming up a storm, and it was my job to keep them quiet. So I'm running around doing crazy amounts of stuff and I hear some very loud screaming and someone pounding on a door, I run around the corner and there's this girl trying to get through the stage door (for the dance concert). It was her spotlight dance, and the girls who were responsible for opening the door to let the dancers in had some sort of grudge against her and were trying to make her miss her dance. It was awful. I whipped out Eck's key ring and opened the door, the girl inside poked her head out and slammed the door back shut, so, I opened it again. The little bitch inside came out and got in my face threatening to "kick my ass". It was ridiculous.
There was just a lot going on for a 4 hour span of time, way too much in fact. There was some upsetting news about friends....::cough::....and all in all, the night was just rather difficult to deal with, so, I cried, a lot.
Brenon lent me his shoulder.
Speaking of Brenon, he is wonderful.
That "wonderful" line had just been typed when my phone rang...
I would now like to retract that comment.
I blocked off my day today before the show to spend time with Brenon because it's what he wanted. Usually, on Saturdays, I'm up early and down at the beach with my father. I passed on that so that B and I could spend the day together, and he knew this. The inconsiderate asshole is flaking on me. Leaving me abandoned here, stood up. I am upset. Flakiness kills me.
............I need to go and make an attempt to make today work, and to figure out a new way to get the couple of things I needed to get done, done...........
::sigh::
I've been extremely busy the past two weeks with the play. It is a great show, I love it, and I know it's my last at Grossmont so I should savor it; but, I can't help but just want it all to be over. Tonight is closing night, it shall be fun.
I broke down on Thursday night. I hadn't cried in a while, and I just completely broke down. I was doing double duty for the play, taking on the House Manager responsibilities along with my Assistant Director ones. That was enough stress already. But, I've done something to spite SOMEONE with some sort of cosmic power, for the dance concert was scheduled for the same night. The stupid little dance girls were screaming up a storm, and it was my job to keep them quiet. So I'm running around doing crazy amounts of stuff and I hear some very loud screaming and someone pounding on a door, I run around the corner and there's this girl trying to get through the stage door (for the dance concert). It was her spotlight dance, and the girls who were responsible for opening the door to let the dancers in had some sort of grudge against her and were trying to make her miss her dance. It was awful. I whipped out Eck's key ring and opened the door, the girl inside poked her head out and slammed the door back shut, so, I opened it again. The little bitch inside came out and got in my face threatening to "kick my ass". It was ridiculous.
There was just a lot going on for a 4 hour span of time, way too much in fact. There was some upsetting news about friends....::cough::....and all in all, the night was just rather difficult to deal with, so, I cried, a lot.
Brenon lent me his shoulder.
Speaking of Brenon, he is wonderful.
That "wonderful" line had just been typed when my phone rang...
I would now like to retract that comment.
I blocked off my day today before the show to spend time with Brenon because it's what he wanted. Usually, on Saturdays, I'm up early and down at the beach with my father. I passed on that so that B and I could spend the day together, and he knew this. The inconsiderate asshole is flaking on me. Leaving me abandoned here, stood up. I am upset. Flakiness kills me.
............I need to go and make an attempt to make today work, and to figure out a new way to get the couple of things I needed to get done, done...........
::sigh::