survival sickness
so basically my anxiety has been through the roof lately. its getting so out of control. I had a panic attack in my sleep last night for the first time ever. it was soooo horrible. its not like anything in particular set it off. I need to stop worrying so much about everyone else especially since they don't worry about me. it really literally paralyzes me and I feel like I can't move or talk or I'll throw up all over the place. in fact I feel like that right now.
also, why are all the crazies and druggies drawn to me? im so sick of it and sick of dealing with other peoples problems while trying not to judge them. do you understand how hard it is for me to not judge you when I know the whole fucking story??? you're clearly not worried about me or yourself for that matter so why the fuck do you expect me to care? the thing it though, is that I do care and I do worry and I can't help it.
also, why are all the crazies and druggies drawn to me? im so sick of it and sick of dealing with other peoples problems while trying not to judge them. do you understand how hard it is for me to not judge you when I know the whole fucking story??? you're clearly not worried about me or yourself for that matter so why the fuck do you expect me to care? the thing it though, is that I do care and I do worry and I can't help it.