i am so dumb

[_mr_rogers]

i am sorry for every bad thing i have ever done. i wish i could take it all back, but i can't so i hate myself for that. i always seem to mess things up, even when they could be the best thing that every happened to me in my whole life. i wish i have lived my life differently. making so many dumb mistakes. sometimes i just need someone to tell me to shut the hell up because i am so retarded when i get things in my head that are just dumb. i always think what could of been and it makes me cry every time. i just really hate myself. when i got something going good i always screw it up. i don't blame people if they think im an asshole because i can be. i am so needy and i hate it. why can't i stop being a little bitch and just shut the fuck up some times. im sorry. i really am. good bye. i will c-ya

life is a test and right now i'm failing