IDIOT!
Last night was awesome! Daneille, Julia and I went to Joe and Tyler's concert at Mike's house. Eventually I sat next to Joe but people had to make me. I really wanted to do something but I'm so scared. And i don't even know why I am so scared, or even what. I really like Joe and I guess he sort of likes me? I played some pool, got violated by Julia and was suprised that I didn't feel anything when I saw Tim. As suzanne said, I was preoccupied. Speaking of suzanne, i can not even express how sorry i am for saying that. I just slipped and i fucked up! I am so so so sorry. :(
Towards the end Joe was standing by the table while i was playing and everyone was saying that he was waiting for me. I wanted to talk to him but i was such an idiot for not doing anything. Im still kicking myself. But in the end, he hugged me! I sort of made up for that, but i still don't know what he thinks about me. Maybe thats whats scaring me. I haven't had a serious relationship in over a year and I don't know where this could go. I've had flings over the summer but I always knew what they were thinking, this is fun not serious. Whatever... Happy Birthday to Danielle on Firday!! Hopefully on the 18th we are going to have a party at my house? probaly just watching movies, but we don't know where its gonna be for sure and whos going. Im me later for the details.
Towards the end Joe was standing by the table while i was playing and everyone was saying that he was waiting for me. I wanted to talk to him but i was such an idiot for not doing anything. Im still kicking myself. But in the end, he hugged me! I sort of made up for that, but i still don't know what he thinks about me. Maybe thats whats scaring me. I haven't had a serious relationship in over a year and I don't know where this could go. I've had flings over the summer but I always knew what they were thinking, this is fun not serious. Whatever... Happy Birthday to Danielle on Firday!! Hopefully on the 18th we are going to have a party at my house? probaly just watching movies, but we don't know where its gonna be for sure and whos going. Im me later for the details.