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He's back this weekend. I guess I should be happy about this. It means I get to see him and hang out and have fun like old times. But he's never around even when he has time off. Shouldn't his family be more important then his friends and buying things? It feels like I don't even have a father anymore. When he tries to talk to me I push him away like some stranger. I feel horrible. But I know that I shouldn't think these things about him. My mom brainwashes me into this... person that I'm becoming. "He said that he would meet us at the barn at 3:00. It's 5:00" He makes these promises that he doesn't keep. And I hate myslef for hating him.