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TheOxyCleanGuy27: lol your causing quite a rucus over here
o shit. haha. i hate this.
okay hmm well i am quite guilt-ridden about this whole thing. it really never should have happened. o well it did. hmm i am not mad at anyone really. maybe upset with one person, but not mad. and though i do think it is an awful thing to do when someone puts their problems all over the internet, i am going to try and make it as non-hypocritical as i can, by making it nice...haha.
in high school things will change. that is something i have known for a long time because i have been told that many times in the past by my sisters and many other people. so, accept it or not, things will change. i am one who has accepted that fact and don't wish to alter that fact.
so on that note...things are obviously changing and/or have changed. point is...i am not expecting my old friends to be friends with me if they dont want to next year. and I AM FINE with that. if i have some of the same friends, good for me, if i dont, o well. things change, i'll get over it. and this is not trying to be mean/sarcastic or anything. i am sincerely being sincere. (wait..can you do that?....::ponders::.......anyway..) but even if we are not close anymore, i truly hope we can be give-a-nice-smile-and-little-wave-when-passing-in-the-hall kind of friends. haha, i am such a dork. okay but anyway thats what i have been thinking about lately and now i have said it so...whew. (relief kind of)
hmm i do have more to say, but i will save that for you, the one i wish to talk to personally. because i am truly remorseful that this has all happened/is happening. and also...i care. alot. soooo yea.
let's be happy with what we have, enjoy the beauty in these days. sometimes we'll laugh sometimes we'll scream, no one said caring was easy.
i know there was a time when emotions felt like pulling teeth. sometimes i felt so soulless, i couldn't even look at me.
it's pathetic to hate who you are...and it feels like hell to
change.
hmm you all must be pretty bored with my rants that i express in these entries. but frankly, this is my life, and how i feel about things going on in it. so if you are bored go make pancakes or something.
o shit. haha. i hate this.
okay hmm well i am quite guilt-ridden about this whole thing. it really never should have happened. o well it did. hmm i am not mad at anyone really. maybe upset with one person, but not mad. and though i do think it is an awful thing to do when someone puts their problems all over the internet, i am going to try and make it as non-hypocritical as i can, by making it nice...haha.
in high school things will change. that is something i have known for a long time because i have been told that many times in the past by my sisters and many other people. so, accept it or not, things will change. i am one who has accepted that fact and don't wish to alter that fact.
so on that note...things are obviously changing and/or have changed. point is...i am not expecting my old friends to be friends with me if they dont want to next year. and I AM FINE with that. if i have some of the same friends, good for me, if i dont, o well. things change, i'll get over it. and this is not trying to be mean/sarcastic or anything. i am sincerely being sincere. (wait..can you do that?....::ponders::.......anyway..) but even if we are not close anymore, i truly hope we can be give-a-nice-smile-and-little-wave-when-passing-in-the-hall kind of friends. haha, i am such a dork. okay but anyway thats what i have been thinking about lately and now i have said it so...whew. (relief kind of)
hmm i do have more to say, but i will save that for you, the one i wish to talk to personally. because i am truly remorseful that this has all happened/is happening. and also...i care. alot. soooo yea.
let's be happy with what we have, enjoy the beauty in these days. sometimes we'll laugh sometimes we'll scream, no one said caring was easy.
i know there was a time when emotions felt like pulling teeth. sometimes i felt so soulless, i couldn't even look at me.
it's pathetic to hate who you are...and it feels like hell to
change.
hmm you all must be pretty bored with my rants that i express in these entries. but frankly, this is my life, and how i feel about things going on in it. so if you are bored go make pancakes or something.