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god i am so freaking upset right now. i wish things wouldnt get to me like they do, but they do. i think i can count on one hand the # of people on this planet that actually give a flying fuck about me. lately it just really seems obvious to me that i cant do or say anything right. nothing goes the way i planned. i always get fussed at. my feelings always get hurt. i always end up in tears. i just try soooo hard ya know? i dont understand why i have to be in a state of devastation 75% of the time. its really bothering me. i have so much going on right now and so much that i need to do. things are getting in the way. im really lazy and im always procrastinating. i have all this shit i need to do, and then i have other like.. social, or emotional issues that i have to deal with and sometimes i just want to crawl into a hole and not come out for a real long time. i try so hard to make everyone around me happy, and i guess i pay the price for that.. most of the time that 'price' is my fucking unhappiness. but who cares right? definitely not you. id appreciate it if no one commented on this. (not like anyone ever would anyway) BYE.