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I got back from the Mardi Gras dance a little while ago. It was pretty fun. It would have been better if me and 2 of my best friends in the whole world were on speaking terms, but hey--thats up to them. If they cared they'd have said something. But then again.. theres someone I care about that I wanted to say something to but.. i just couldnt. I dont know, it was weird. But anyways, I did have fun. I was on HOT-GUY-OVERLOAD. OMG OMG OMG There were so many good looking guys there. I was like "DAMMNN" hehe. My neck is killing me from the wreck friday. I hope the pain is gone by monday. Man that was crazy. Hmm.. if I died or got put in the hospital I wonder if certain someones would have even noticed--let alone cared. (haha) Yea Im just playin. Thank god it wasnt worse than it was. Im really grateful. You know I think I have a problem with pushing people away. Something is up with me lately. I just dont feel.. right, ya know? Maybe its because I miss my friends. Allison and I both do. It hurts pretty bad to lose people that way. Just--BAM--all of a sudden theyve forgotten who you are. That has happened to me a lot. I keep losing best friends. Maybe thats why I push people away, I dont want them to get too close because Im afraid theyll turn on me one day, like so many "best friends" have. It really hurts when people change. Maybe they can change back. I dont know--hopefully. Who knows. But theres no sense in worrying. If those guys are as great as I think they are, everything will work itself out and get back to normal. After all, thanks to them Ive had a great year, and I dont want to spend the next one without them. Well, as I always say. Whatever happens, happens. Later!