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I hate this house. I come home and i feel like shit and all I want to do is sleep. I don't feel happy, I feel depressed, and even more so now cause my dad is again jobless. shocker there. Maybe if he didnt spend all his money on beer and pot, then we'd be able to get things we need like oh say FOOD. I need to come up with 237 dollars for my mom by the time I get my license which means I need a fucking job fast. I'm so sick of never having money. My sister is paying me on monday and I get fifty and I'm keeping 40 of it. So I'm only gonna be able to get my mom ten. She started yelling at me today in the car saying i'm irresponsible and I never pay her back for anything and i'm lazy and i need a fucking job. I'm like what the fuck ever. I'm getting my tounge pierced. It's a spur of the moment rebellion thing and i dont fucking care cause she can bite me. i've been pretty pissed at them and i honestly dont know why. maybe cause i've realized just how fucked up their reasonings and rules are. shit i might not even be able to go to lake worth cuz my mom doesnt want me driving that far everyday. seriously wtf. i dont care about driving, how am i ever going to be on my own if i cant take a harmless 25 minute drive to lw? whatever. damn. I NEED A JOB!! ugh only less then a month before i can get one. I have now been accepted by the aasterud family. I miss kara. me and her have grown incredibly close the past few weeks and she said she hasnt had a friend like me since first grade. its cool to have a BEST friend again. i'm gonna chill with her and danielle and david and cuchie tomorrow. fun stuff. those fidelis kids rock. peace.