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[disjunction// i wrote this after the fact i composed my minute conclusion.]
sometimes i see pictures of my current self and i forget
how much i've changed in the past year - physically, mentally,
and just my overall outlook on life. i brush off the consistent
reminders of friends from former stages. i even go through the
motions every morning of looking in the mirror. quick glances.
when i've got the time to gaze, it's scary at times.
i see these scabs forming. temporary useless scabs. quick fixes.
until i'm exposed and it's all out in the open.
it will hurt indefinately. i know it. and i fear that day.
getting up and going. walking away. leaving faces&places behind.
hanging yet another out to dry. fucking always moving on to the next..
yeah that's what i'm prone to and rather good at. that's about it. that is all.
sometimes i see pictures of my current self and i forget
how much i've changed in the past year - physically, mentally,
and just my overall outlook on life. i brush off the consistent
reminders of friends from former stages. i even go through the
motions every morning of looking in the mirror. quick glances.
when i've got the time to gaze, it's scary at times.
i see these scabs forming. temporary useless scabs. quick fixes.
until i'm exposed and it's all out in the open.
it will hurt indefinately. i know it. and i fear that day.
getting up and going. walking away. leaving faces&places behind.
hanging yet another out to dry. fucking always moving on to the next..
yeah that's what i'm prone to and rather good at. that's about it. that is all.