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i'm still a bit of a mess, but i guess i'm just trying, like really trying, to live one day at a time. i'd be really happy if he came to visit in two weeks, but nothing is ever a guarantee. even if he did come, it wouldn't be for all that long. and once he left, i'd probably be pining, ever so pathetically.
at first, i wasn't very satisified with the people i'd been meeting here initially, but i dunno. attitudes change. there's one person i've particularly grown close to in the past few weeks. we may not be able to hang out all that much, but i feel like when we do our conversations are gaining headway, even depth. and she really isn't as blase as i thought. she's awesome. and looking back now, i feel bad that i took her for granted, even if it was only for a week or so. she's pretty genuine. and that's often hard to come across these days. and how we do love our boys with shaggy hair and tight pants!
i sometimes wonder about the people i've grown a part from. maybe they're happier. maybe they're finding peace of mind. maybe they're not. i don't know. maybe it's better that i don't.
as for now, i'm okay.
at first, i wasn't very satisified with the people i'd been meeting here initially, but i dunno. attitudes change. there's one person i've particularly grown close to in the past few weeks. we may not be able to hang out all that much, but i feel like when we do our conversations are gaining headway, even depth. and she really isn't as blase as i thought. she's awesome. and looking back now, i feel bad that i took her for granted, even if it was only for a week or so. she's pretty genuine. and that's often hard to come across these days. and how we do love our boys with shaggy hair and tight pants!
i sometimes wonder about the people i've grown a part from. maybe they're happier. maybe they're finding peace of mind. maybe they're not. i don't know. maybe it's better that i don't.
as for now, i'm okay.