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wow. I really shouldn't write this entry considering Im going to sound so whiny but you know what?
DONT care
Im really scared right now. I have that feeling in the pit of my stomach and I don;t know what is going to happen. I know I shuldnt assume the worst but with the situation right know, I just I know too much of what happened in the past. He's going to be gone for so long. I just know it. and thats what scares me the most because even if hes okay, hell be gone and I wont know anything until I hear from him. and this sucks so badly.
and I apologize to everyone last night for being so down. It was just on my mind and I couldnt help but be really worried.
plus some.
ughhhhh
but on the upside I did actually enjoy myself last night!
after applebees with Jonathan and Brian, I took many a nap at Bris while Jon and Mike "went to the gym" or as the Ernis and I say "go to mikes basement." Chris showed up!! but danielle never did. : ( I miss that girl!!
Jon and I did pitstop at JJ's then did sbucks and finally ended by Mikes. Goodnight there with it being so quiet. Getting to talk to JJ was awesome...shes really a sweetheart! and then Brian being wow.
but sleeping next to my love, my Jonathan, was EXACTLY what I needed and I love him so much! Being able to wake up and look at him right there next to me- I cant even explain it. It's indescribable and sooooo incredible!!!
: ) !!!
DONT care
Im really scared right now. I have that feeling in the pit of my stomach and I don;t know what is going to happen. I know I shuldnt assume the worst but with the situation right know, I just I know too much of what happened in the past. He's going to be gone for so long. I just know it. and thats what scares me the most because even if hes okay, hell be gone and I wont know anything until I hear from him. and this sucks so badly.
and I apologize to everyone last night for being so down. It was just on my mind and I couldnt help but be really worried.
plus some.
ughhhhh
but on the upside I did actually enjoy myself last night!
after applebees with Jonathan and Brian, I took many a nap at Bris while Jon and Mike "went to the gym" or as the Ernis and I say "go to mikes basement." Chris showed up!! but danielle never did. : ( I miss that girl!!
Jon and I did pitstop at JJ's then did sbucks and finally ended by Mikes. Goodnight there with it being so quiet. Getting to talk to JJ was awesome...shes really a sweetheart! and then Brian being wow.
but sleeping next to my love, my Jonathan, was EXACTLY what I needed and I love him so much! Being able to wake up and look at him right there next to me- I cant even explain it. It's indescribable and sooooo incredible!!!
: ) !!!