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im such a happi person now. u wouldnt believe me if i told u, but itz true, i am incredibly happi. my friend ashley introduced me to this guy tim, who lives in NY, but i still talked to him. at first, i thought he was a crazi ass mofo, but then he grew on me, and he always told me how much he liked me and what not, and then last saturday we got in this HUGE fight bout us liking each other. i told him and he felt i didnt respect him by tellin him straight out and i needed ashley's bf to convince me to say it. so we were both realli mad, and i didnt talk to him for bout three hours. then he comes back, and were both talkin and eventually he asks me out. which i had mixed feelings about at first. like, i did like him, but i still loved pedro, which isnt something good obviously. but now, itz onli tuesday, weve been goin out for 4 days. and i kno i dont love him yet, but i feel so deep for this kid. lol. i realli realli realli realli realli realli realli realli realli like him. i could add more reallis but tht would take way too long to type. im slowly but surely leavin pedro in my past. i realized that if he realli did love me, he wouldnt be avoiding me like he is now. i feel like he just played me. but tim, everything he says comes from his heart. hes for real. even though he said he loves me, i think hes moving a wee bit too fast, but besides tht, i kno everything he says is true. hes made me happi in such a way tht i dont think ive ever felt before. pedro never allowed me to feel this way, where i could express my love for him openly, and nick, tht wasnt even a real bf/gf thing anywayz. itz something totally new. and ba da ba ba ba im lovin it :D