trying to wake up

[_mooch]

Today I decided to wear red instead of black. My black period has been too long and I need to wear something else. I believe colors have an affect on your feelings. On MY feelings. Now I need to see something else than just black.

I'm trying to find the joy of living again. I don't know where all the positive emotions went, but I'm definitely going to find them. I'm tired of being miserable. Very, very tired.