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Yesterday my mom told me my cousin is moving to her own apartment and I realized I'm getting old. I mean I remember when she was born and now she is 18 and an adult. I don't feel 18 years older when I think about the time she was born. Maybe 10 years older, but definitely not 18! Yet I am and soon there will be a time when I have to start to act like a grown up. And after couple of years I cross that line when I've lived more on my own then with my mom. Somehow that makes me sad.
Some girls look older than me though they are younger and certainly they feel more mature. I feel like I'm stuck at 24 and I don't grow anymore. Few years ago I freaked out 'cause I realized I had actually forgot I wasn't twenty-something any more, but approaching thirty-something. I don't mind that I get older, I just can't seem to get hold of my real age.
Maybe I'm just crazy and I don't even realize that.
Some girls look older than me though they are younger and certainly they feel more mature. I feel like I'm stuck at 24 and I don't grow anymore. Few years ago I freaked out 'cause I realized I had actually forgot I wasn't twenty-something any more, but approaching thirty-something. I don't mind that I get older, I just can't seem to get hold of my real age.
Maybe I'm just crazy and I don't even realize that.