a lil rant
To say that this job is making me loose my mind is only putting it lighty. I have tried to find other places to work but it seems like no one wants to touch me with a ten foot pole. i have a year and a half of managment expierence and no one wants to hire me, heck they wont even call me after i have applied. no one but best buy for "part time seasonal work" will call me back. nothing at all. I sold my soul to get thanksgiving and the day after off. i dont know how i munipulated lisa into letting me do it but it means i am going 8 days with out a day off to pull this off. also i will be driving four hours by myself for the first time to ely AFTER i get off work on wednesday... i just hope i dont fall asleep at the wheel. i think that i will have many an energy drink in my system and i will try to find some other form of pure caffine to keep me awake. my only saving grace at my work right now are a very small handfull of people. one is my assistant manager tracey. she still has her soul. she seems nice. i havent caught her lying to my face as of yet. kyle keeps me sain along with mitch. naomie is ok but she is a tie to my former life and instead of keeping justin out of my mind and life i see and hear him every day. nothing i can do about it. but other than that i dont trust alot of people i work with. lisas new thing is whenever i tell her something i get a "cool cool" responce from her. i know hat is a regeritated resopnce, like when ever you ask me how i'm doing and i respondet with "fabulous". i also can tell that she tunes me out and is wishing i will slip up just right so i will either quit or get fired over something stupid. she lies to everyone and i wonder if she can live with herself at night. i dont trust ty anymore. he has started a liking to lying to me to my face and pretending like he isnt but i know he is. he isnt as good at it as lisa is but he's trying. he keeps using the line "i'm new" but he has been at it for a year. and then there is tish who is so sarcastically rude she can make you cry and i think she takes pride in it. she just can crawl under your skin then be acid. when i called her out on being so rude and sarcastically mean she asked me if i was having a bad day and truned it back on me like i was having a mood swing. i am not a person at walmart. i am not improtant. i am not a person. i am in charge of everything you can not eat and i am worth as much as scum on the bottem of a shoe to my store manager. i deem she has been on a campaine to make me quit since about my one year there. hire more at part time and pay them less! that is the walmart way! walmart is the greatest place to work! but we will not pay you enough money to survive actually you make less than the poverty level. you can not pay your bills or aford to live. you can not make enough money to eat or anyhting of that sort. errr oh well. i am just agrivated with this place. when you feel your stomache start to hurt and drop when you enter the place you know your soul is dying every moment you are there. i want to move. plastic floor mats on the floor? come on now people! also in other news.... no baby.