what to do?
a new year brings about new things. but what kind of things will be going on for me??? i am very cuiourius as to what God has instore. i decided this last week that i needed to change something in my life...i did not like where i was heading. so i am surrendering all to Jesus. i want to give Him everything. no matter what!! life is not worth living unless you are dying to yourself and taking up your cross and following after God. and that is what i want to be doing!!
so many things to concider for the months to come. i want to go and take a class at the bible college this quarter but i need a little money so i know that if God wants me there he will supply everything. i am trying to fix some of my relationships that are broken. it is so hard to do. i don't even know where to start with some people. yet i know it is what i have to do in order to feel real freedom in my life. God will give me the words. i also am having to disconect some pople from my life which is just as hard. yet again i know that is what i need to do in order to move on.
latly i have been feeling really lonly. everywhere i look there are cute little couples. makes me sick. but i long for that so much. i long for someone to be there. but guys are so weird. i don't understand them. its like they are scared or something. there is this one right now that i think is pretty cool but i can't really read him. i enjoy spending time with him and talking to him. but guys are weird and they don't really show feelings. i hate it so much. then i started talking to an old guy friends,andrew hurst, he is way cool but too much like a little kid. but he is so much fun to be with. i just want someone that i feel comfortable with. someday i will find him or maybe he will just wake up and see what he is missing.
so many things to concider for the months to come. i want to go and take a class at the bible college this quarter but i need a little money so i know that if God wants me there he will supply everything. i am trying to fix some of my relationships that are broken. it is so hard to do. i don't even know where to start with some people. yet i know it is what i have to do in order to feel real freedom in my life. God will give me the words. i also am having to disconect some pople from my life which is just as hard. yet again i know that is what i need to do in order to move on.
latly i have been feeling really lonly. everywhere i look there are cute little couples. makes me sick. but i long for that so much. i long for someone to be there. but guys are so weird. i don't understand them. its like they are scared or something. there is this one right now that i think is pretty cool but i can't really read him. i enjoy spending time with him and talking to him. but guys are weird and they don't really show feelings. i hate it so much. then i started talking to an old guy friends,andrew hurst, he is way cool but too much like a little kid. but he is so much fun to be with. i just want someone that i feel comfortable with. someday i will find him or maybe he will just wake up and see what he is missing.