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sometimes i feel like i've lifted a ton of weights from my shoulder. i'm no longer stuck here. i can leave at any time. i did it once. i can do it again.
but then sometimes i think about just how poor i am.
sometimes i don't feel like i want to do photography anymore.
when i was a kid i used to think about the future. it never really scared me. i knew what i wanted to do. photography. it was so easy. i had the usual veterinarian/astronaut/teacher dream, but there was always photography.
i thought by the time i was in my mid 20's i'd be married. by the time i was 27ish i'd have a kid or two (eeks). a house. two cars.
i'm 27 now and just 3 months into a(n awesome) relationship. i live with my mother. i have no job. i live off a bank loan. (dangerous, i know). i don't have my license, and two cats (one that heavily depends on me).
i'll be 30 soon(ish). do i know what i want?
i think i do.
but then sometimes i think about just how poor i am.
sometimes i don't feel like i want to do photography anymore.
when i was a kid i used to think about the future. it never really scared me. i knew what i wanted to do. photography. it was so easy. i had the usual veterinarian/astronaut/teacher dream, but there was always photography.
i thought by the time i was in my mid 20's i'd be married. by the time i was 27ish i'd have a kid or two (eeks). a house. two cars.
i'm 27 now and just 3 months into a(n awesome) relationship. i live with my mother. i have no job. i live off a bank loan. (dangerous, i know). i don't have my license, and two cats (one that heavily depends on me).
i'll be 30 soon(ish). do i know what i want?
i think i do.