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i am absolutely exhausted
yet can't bring myself to go to bed. my mind is wide awake. not rambling or churning or spinning or thinking. just... awake.
it's not like i'm going to miss anything. everyone else is in their respective beds. the only things to watch on tv are info-mercials and the simpsons. yet i feel like life is going on without me if i were to go to bed. well, i suppose it DOES go on without me... technically.
i sense that this is one of those nights where if i don't force myself to bed i will be up for 2 days straight.
so, now there are only 2 questions remaining.
do i go to bed to lay down and stare at the ceiling all night long, but be able to wrap myself up in blankets and stretch? chancing what little hope there might be to catch the most briefest of naps.
or do i stay on the couch with the remote possibility that something on tv might entertain me for a few moments, or that someone will come online to distract me? any nap i get in bed, i can get on the couch. not as comfy though..
oh, what a pickle.
i left my sleeping pills at home. i think tonight may be a night where i wish i brought them.
i need to go for a walk, but don't have a house key for this place.
yet can't bring myself to go to bed. my mind is wide awake. not rambling or churning or spinning or thinking. just... awake.
it's not like i'm going to miss anything. everyone else is in their respective beds. the only things to watch on tv are info-mercials and the simpsons. yet i feel like life is going on without me if i were to go to bed. well, i suppose it DOES go on without me... technically.
i sense that this is one of those nights where if i don't force myself to bed i will be up for 2 days straight.
so, now there are only 2 questions remaining.
do i go to bed to lay down and stare at the ceiling all night long, but be able to wrap myself up in blankets and stretch? chancing what little hope there might be to catch the most briefest of naps.
or do i stay on the couch with the remote possibility that something on tv might entertain me for a few moments, or that someone will come online to distract me? any nap i get in bed, i can get on the couch. not as comfy though..
oh, what a pickle.
i left my sleeping pills at home. i think tonight may be a night where i wish i brought them.
i need to go for a walk, but don't have a house key for this place.