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hey all! i'm super bored! damn this hurricane! but anyways life has been ubber busy what will senior year and all the drama! this guy marc {im sure u'd find his name in my earlier entries} and i got into a huge arguement! i mean hes my best guy friend and he believeS a lot of shit thats just not true and on top of that hes saying a lot of hurtful things! and this guy had taken me thru hell! hes used me to the point that ive cried! ive felt low at time because of this guy! but i still love him and forgave him cuz i accept him for who he is but god forbid he does the same for me! heres our lil story.. freshmen year we dated for about 9 months and it wasnt a good time! i mean high school was so new and we wanted to have fun so we ended it! and weve always been best of friends and recently we started a more intimate/serious relationship during the summer! and he told me all the things i wanted to hear {i love you!} and i trusted him cuz that my dawg and the guy ive been in LOVE with all this time! and later that week he turned around in front of all his friends and just totally dissed me! he was like i never wanted something serious i thought we were just 'fuck-buddies' and yo that shit hurt cuz 1st of all this is my boy ya know! but we talked and talked and he asked for forgiveness and i did {now i look back and boy that was stupid} and we just went on being friends and i made out with some guy at a party that i didnt know was his friend! {drama} plus were not together! and boy he blew up! and that goes back to him listen to shit thats not true and saying things about me that made me soo fucking angry! anywho he wants to be friends but fuck that cuz i have too much pride! and if he thinks im lying and he calls me a liar then why does he wanna be friends with me?! i sure as hell dont wanna be friends with someone who thinks that fucking lowly of me! i mean i love this guy hes one of my best friends but ill be damned to let him do the things hes doin! hell no! if he thinks im a slut even tho i didnt even know they were friends then hes got me bent! he made it perfectly clear he didnt want shit w/ me and now hes all mad saying he wanted to start a relationship! MAN FUCK THE BULLSHIT CUZ I AINT FOR THAT SHIT! w/e thats my little story! and it urks me to just pass him in the halls and not even exchange eye contact! it kills me! but one day hell realize his faults.. i think thats happening now cuz hes been calling me! we'll see! ooo my friend gabe and moogs are in town for FRANCES! AHHHHA!