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I know sometimes, I go on a tangent and alot of people thing "Well, you made your choice!" Granted. But either way, I'm bothered, so feel free not to read on.
This is the first weekend I've been home a weekend since last December.
Bryn's gone to Toronto for a car show and I -was- going to go to Brockville to see my dad and William. Problem is that with the combination of my mother and the sitter feeding Liam, along the way he hasn't been getting enough fiber he's been constipated for the past few days. So, I called dad and told him we couldn't come out tonight, but he was welcome to come over tomorrow. He is, and I'm thrilled, but it won't be for long, which sucks.
Friday, I was a little bummed; Karen and I had been planning to go see a movie for the past week or so, and John was going to join us. I mentioned that Bryn would probably like to come seeing as he was leaving for the weekend, and I wouldn't see him until the weekend prior. Bryn seemed down with that until Thursday when he told me that his brother might like to come, but didn't really want to be around new people. So, I threw off my plans with Karen (stupid me) only to find out at the end of the day that Bryn's brother wasn't coming, and that Bryn didn't really want to go either because he had an early morning the next day. So Bryn came over to visit, and we didn't even rent a movie instead we just watched TV - like we always do. (Don't get me wrong, I love the galoot, but a movie would have been nice)
So, the lack of a social is really getting to me. I think it's because I'm on haitus for the weekend from the daily grind and it's just sort of hit me all of a sudden. Even at Bryn's I'm a little preoccupied, usually with watching Liam and homework, even still I haven't been 'out' doing anything in months. I'm sure I'll find some time to do something at some point, but as for the time being, it's hella shitty.
Spending the weekend at home has really made me appreciate my distance from my mother throughout the week.
She's been laying into me about anything she can think of as of 9am this morning.
She's convinced ether Bryn or myself have broken the lint trap to the dryer. The lint trap that's been broken since last summer, hence, it couldn't have been Bryn, and would therefore most likely be mom (had I broken it I would have told her just to spare this kind of an incident). Regardless, according to her, it must have been either myself or Bryn. Namely Bryn.
And from there, she lay into me about groceries (For the hundreth time), and when I mentioned that I've been doing groceries for the past 2 week, she asked for what, to which I replied my lunches (also, KD for Liam, cheese slices, hot dogs, juice, milk, chocolate milk, snacks, For Liam) to which she replied "Well, what about the other meals you eat? And what about all the meals I feed your son?"
All because I told her I'd rather do my own groceries rather than cutting her a check everytime she does.
So yeah, I'm not sure what the rest of the day will hold.
I'm hoping I can make it to the end of the day without losing it on someone, and just settle in and lose myself in a rental film and some smart pop... awwww yeaaah.
Trying to be the optimist that is my newly aquired alternate personality, here's some of ther perks for this weekend:
1. NO TRAVELING!!
2. Regular meals/the ability not to eat if the mood doesn't strike me
3. Not having to watch any shitacular Much More Music reality special about washed up musicians either finding a mate, living with their relatives or going to Japan.
4. I can get my homework done in the comfort of my own home
5. I CAN SLEEP IN MY OWN BED!!
6. I won't have to run upstairs in the middle of the night to make a bottle.
7. I can have sex (with myself), or not; whatever. It's TOTALLY up to me *chuckles*
8. I don't have to worry about what Liam will break next: he's already broken all the good stuff here.
9. I won't get tempted by baked goods
10. I won't feel bad at the end of the weekend when I have to go home again.
And there my friends, is Renee's optimistic list of the hour!!
And now, I'm going to go play cars with my son!
Cheers!