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I know you are reading this. I didn't want to address you with a specific letter because I am trying to end things here.
Living in Flagstaff has completly changed my life.
My friends are my family now. Chris, Jess and Jake are brothers to me and I love them. I have a great support system within those guys. Jake was the most excited out of anyone I told about me being one of the leading anchors for NAU Live! next semester which really meant a lot to me. I can count on them for anything and I know they look out for me. Melissa is my best friend and we balance eachother out really well. We met under very interesting circumstances and have maintained a friendship out of it. Her and I hang all the time and can relate a lot to eachother. We plan on living together starting at the end of May and are so excited about "our place". I feel like I am able to completly be myself around her and the boys.
I met James at the beginning of the year at a party and had a huge crush on him. We would run into eachother at parties and I thought he was into me but he never called. Turned out for three weeks, he had been texting me to meet up and I never recieved them because I don't get texts. We finally figure it out and then that Friday we went out to dinner and I stayed with him the entire weekend. We have been seeing eachother casually for over two months now. It is perfect because it is casual enough to enjoy eachothers company and not feel tied down with the restrictions and permameters of a relationship but we have gotten very close since we have met and I love hanging with him.
Through James, I have met so many great people. I love his roommates Alex and Betsy. All of them are such laid back, hippies and I am having great time expierementing in new music and expierences with them. Other than hanging with Jake and Chris, all of my other friends are people I met through James.
Flagstaff is the place I need to be and no where else would have fit more perfectly. I am so happy here and I feel like I am able to grow into who I am supposed to be here.
I am not the same person you knew. My spirit is the same, but even a lot of my views on life and pricipals have changed. I am not someone you could love again because I am so different from you.
Our conversation was short because I have nothing to say. I am happy you are doing well, only because I wouldn't want anything bad to happen to you. But thats all that means. You have always lied about whats going on in your life, to either impress people or yourself. I don't know why you do that. People are impressed with you, but when you lie people can see through that and it seems pathetic. I don't want to talk to you because I know you lie to me about these things. It may very well happen in the future, but atleast in the near future I know you aren't moving to Hawaii. I know you aren't going to three different mission trips. I have a hard time believing much even when it comes to where you are going to school.
Your mother writes your papers and I have never seen anyone who makes as much spelling and grammatical errors for being a college student.
This is harsh, but this is how I feel. I don't hate you and I valued what we had. I thought it was a good, first relationship but it went on much longer than it should have. I learned how a guy should and shouldn't treat me. I also learned how I should treat a partner as well.
It honestly is the best to not contact me anymore. I have asked you numerous times to stop. I don't care about whatever dream or feelings you get about me anymore. They don't mean anything. I am not upset, I just am such a different person that if you still knew me you wouldn't want to be involved with me. It would be so clear that I am not right for you. But since we won't be seeing eachother, thats why I am just laying it out like this.
Living in Flagstaff has completly changed my life.
My friends are my family now. Chris, Jess and Jake are brothers to me and I love them. I have a great support system within those guys. Jake was the most excited out of anyone I told about me being one of the leading anchors for NAU Live! next semester which really meant a lot to me. I can count on them for anything and I know they look out for me. Melissa is my best friend and we balance eachother out really well. We met under very interesting circumstances and have maintained a friendship out of it. Her and I hang all the time and can relate a lot to eachother. We plan on living together starting at the end of May and are so excited about "our place". I feel like I am able to completly be myself around her and the boys.
I met James at the beginning of the year at a party and had a huge crush on him. We would run into eachother at parties and I thought he was into me but he never called. Turned out for three weeks, he had been texting me to meet up and I never recieved them because I don't get texts. We finally figure it out and then that Friday we went out to dinner and I stayed with him the entire weekend. We have been seeing eachother casually for over two months now. It is perfect because it is casual enough to enjoy eachothers company and not feel tied down with the restrictions and permameters of a relationship but we have gotten very close since we have met and I love hanging with him.
Through James, I have met so many great people. I love his roommates Alex and Betsy. All of them are such laid back, hippies and I am having great time expierementing in new music and expierences with them. Other than hanging with Jake and Chris, all of my other friends are people I met through James.
Flagstaff is the place I need to be and no where else would have fit more perfectly. I am so happy here and I feel like I am able to grow into who I am supposed to be here.
I am not the same person you knew. My spirit is the same, but even a lot of my views on life and pricipals have changed. I am not someone you could love again because I am so different from you.
Our conversation was short because I have nothing to say. I am happy you are doing well, only because I wouldn't want anything bad to happen to you. But thats all that means. You have always lied about whats going on in your life, to either impress people or yourself. I don't know why you do that. People are impressed with you, but when you lie people can see through that and it seems pathetic. I don't want to talk to you because I know you lie to me about these things. It may very well happen in the future, but atleast in the near future I know you aren't moving to Hawaii. I know you aren't going to three different mission trips. I have a hard time believing much even when it comes to where you are going to school.
Your mother writes your papers and I have never seen anyone who makes as much spelling and grammatical errors for being a college student.
This is harsh, but this is how I feel. I don't hate you and I valued what we had. I thought it was a good, first relationship but it went on much longer than it should have. I learned how a guy should and shouldn't treat me. I also learned how I should treat a partner as well.
It honestly is the best to not contact me anymore. I have asked you numerous times to stop. I don't care about whatever dream or feelings you get about me anymore. They don't mean anything. I am not upset, I just am such a different person that if you still knew me you wouldn't want to be involved with me. It would be so clear that I am not right for you. But since we won't be seeing eachother, thats why I am just laying it out like this.