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you do not deserve anything, or anyone that you have in your life right now. you are a user, your life is completely based on condition. "i will give you a gift only because you got me one, i will love you only because you love me. i pretend to listen to your stories, but i zone out and laugh hysterically right along with you, even though i have no idea what were laughing about, because i dont care enough to listen." you function off expectations of perfection, and yet you are disgusting with how incredibly naive and jaded you are. you think you are one of the gods, that no man, woman, or even child can treat you as human. no teacher, older sibling, member of authority or elder can treat you like the 15 year old girl that you are. you are aware of nothing but your own needs. you borrow money with no intent on paying it back because "well duh. her mom gives her SO much money, i have none...she SHOULD lend it to me". "she SHOULD give me her camera. she has two. thats so dumb, too bad i broke it and dont intend on paying for it, replacing it, or even telling her" "well. see. i saw five dollars in your back seat and COULD have stolen it, but i didnt, so can i have it since i didnt steal it?" and yet youre confused as to why friends of yours just fall of the face of the earth? why people just need their space from time to time? youre drama consists of not having a boyfriend in highschool, and whether or not someone resonds to your text, and yet you think you have the right to judge as to whether or not other peoples lives are hard or not? "is your life really that hard that you have to smoke?" "i dont care that his dad died and he was homeless. he should have learned from his past mistakes and be a successful business man by now." "I dont care that youre spending all of your extra money on me, i want my fucking chicken nuggets and i will scream my hatred for you and embarass you in front of your freinds unless you get them for me. i dont care that youre sick and tired and have a 3 hour drive home, and are using all of your gas for this trip, I WANT TO GO ON MORE RIDES. you ruined everything" "how dare you assume that i would lower my standards to eating at home, or god forbid at tim hortons. I WANT MC DONALDS BITCH" i could go on forever. like i said, you deserve nothing and noone that you have in your life. you will be alone for a good while. i am embarassed of you, totally and completely. i love you, but i am ashamed.