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Last night Justin and I went to loui luigi n phong's party together. The night didn’t start out like I expected. A minute after we walked in I felt out of place. I stood still with my hands in my pockets, my heart pounding in my chest. I looked around at all the faces in the room and no one was looking at me. Not one person. Not even Justin. But I still felt like I could hear everyone saying, "Go home. You aren't supposed to be here." I hear that a lot these days, even when I just go to sit at the lunch table everyday. But I belong more at a lunch table in my school than a hotel party. But after I had smoked a little and had a few beers in me I was feeling more comfortable than ever, its insane how I could go from one extreme to the next with in an hour. I guess that’s why people like to get fucked up. I remember talking to people I haven’t talked to in a while and enjoying my night. I need to work on friend ships, i have put no effort in to any of them and i really should start to. I cant hide behind him all the time..friends are a good idea