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ok so my life up to this point:
RIDICULOUS
i feel that i'm keepign things that my friends that i shouldnt. but if i told them i know they'd think differently of me. in fact i'm pretty sure they'd disown me as their best friend. i dont know. but i just think i should be honest and truthful to them, but i'm scared of loosing the friendships that i've had for along time.
i know i know i should have told them, but i'm afraid. infact some of them think i'm too innocence to do the things thats i've done. i know i've been kind living a double life. but thats now how it is. its kinda like i like doing this but i dont want people to find oou cuase then they will look down on me or something.
i know if i tell they wont tell me they feel any different from me .but deep down inside i know they do . they just dont want to tell me .
and it doesnt help when i have that on my mind, band and school .
although school should come first, i really think band is my main focus this year, dont ask me why . i know i try so hard in school . i really do , but my teachers this just dont know how to teach, that or my brain is slow . i must be a retard but my clases dont get it either so maybe they are in the same boat as me too. grades worry me though. my sister came relly good in her class. i'm afraid i'm not goinn to be as good.
wait wait talking to mark on phone/// cant finihs blog.! ahh
RIDICULOUS
i feel that i'm keepign things that my friends that i shouldnt. but if i told them i know they'd think differently of me. in fact i'm pretty sure they'd disown me as their best friend. i dont know. but i just think i should be honest and truthful to them, but i'm scared of loosing the friendships that i've had for along time.
i know i know i should have told them, but i'm afraid. infact some of them think i'm too innocence to do the things thats i've done. i know i've been kind living a double life. but thats now how it is. its kinda like i like doing this but i dont want people to find oou cuase then they will look down on me or something.
i know if i tell they wont tell me they feel any different from me .but deep down inside i know they do . they just dont want to tell me .
and it doesnt help when i have that on my mind, band and school .
although school should come first, i really think band is my main focus this year, dont ask me why . i know i try so hard in school . i really do , but my teachers this just dont know how to teach, that or my brain is slow . i must be a retard but my clases dont get it either so maybe they are in the same boat as me too. grades worry me though. my sister came relly good in her class. i'm afraid i'm not goinn to be as good.
wait wait talking to mark on phone/// cant finihs blog.! ahh