life: 'What is it in itself? What is its nature?'
there's so much shit going on in my life right now. so many good things marred by so many bad things. and everytime i sit here and think about spilling my guts (for the sake of getting it off my chest), i stop and decide not to.
you see, i could never do a reality show. because i'd sit at my desk everyday and stay up all night reading every blog, journal and myspace page that decided to post something about my behavior. and i'd want to contact each and every one of them just for the chance to be able to justify my actions. eventually, i'd find a reason to dislike said people. just to have a reason to say "i don't care what you think." and mean it.
so i'd like to sit here and tell you guys about how i've fallen in love and am losing my mind. both at the same time, stemming from two totally unrelated events. how. and why.
but i don't have all night.
adieu.
you see, i could never do a reality show. because i'd sit at my desk everyday and stay up all night reading every blog, journal and myspace page that decided to post something about my behavior. and i'd want to contact each and every one of them just for the chance to be able to justify my actions. eventually, i'd find a reason to dislike said people. just to have a reason to say "i don't care what you think." and mean it.
so i'd like to sit here and tell you guys about how i've fallen in love and am losing my mind. both at the same time, stemming from two totally unrelated events. how. and why.
but i don't have all night.
adieu.