IM STAYING STRONG
SO ITS BEEN 4 WHOLE DAYS SINCE IVE SPOKEN TO TOMMY. I WENT BACK TO HIM BUT HE WILL NEVER CHANGE. HES ADDICTED TO OPITATES AND WONT ADMIT IT. HE DOESNT EVEN LOVE HIM SELF. HOW CAN HE SHARE A LIFE WITH ME IF HE DOESNT EVEN CARE ABOUT HIMSELF.. ITS WHATVER THOUGH I WILL SOON GET OVER IT. ITS NOT AS HARD AS IT WAS 2 WKS AGO EITHER. I HAVENT SHEAD A TEAR THIS TIME. AND I DELETED HIS HOUSE NUMBER AND I DONT KNOW IT SO I CANT CALL THERE LOL. N HE HASNT ATTMPTED TO CALL ME SO ITS BETTER THIS WAY. MAYBE HE MISSES ME BUT KNOWS IM BETTER OFF WITHOUT OUT HIM. I DO WISH HIM THE BEST THOUGH.. AND I LOVE THIS QUOTE
WE NEVER REALLY "BROKE UP" WE JUST FELL APART..... BECAYSE WE DID NO WORDS LIKE THAT WERE SPOKEN THIS PAST TIME. THE LAST THING HE SAID TO ME " IS YOUR A DUMB FUCKING CUNT. I HATE YOU. PLEASE GIVE ME 20$" IM LIKE YA OK IF IM SUCH A CUNT THEN WHY WOULD I GIVE U 20$ TO SUPPORT UR DRUG HABIT. IM DONE THIS ATM IS OUT OF ORDER. TRY AGAIN BUT NOT WITH ME. AND HE SAID "I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU AND HUNG UP ON ME".. SO I TOOK A SHOWER GOT DRESSED AND WENT DOWNTOWN AND HAD FREE DRINKS TILL 12. HE CALLED ME ABOUT 9:30 I DIDNT ANSWER AND THEN AGAIN AT 12:30 AND HE LEFT A MESSAGE PRACTICALLY CRYING SAYING THAT HE DOESNT KNOW WHATS BEEN GOING ON WITH US AND THAT HES SORRY. AND HE WISHES I WAS THERE TO GO TO BED WITH HIM. AND SAID GOODNITE.. AND I CYRED THAT NITE BUT HE HASNT ATTEMPTED ALL WEEKND. I DID HAVE A RESTRICTED NUMBER CALL MY CELL YESTERDAY THOUGH AND NOT SAY ANYTHING. I HAVENT HAD SOMEONE CALL PRIVATE SINCE MIDDLE SCHOOL. WELL ANYWAYS. I WILL TALK TO YALL LATERS. HOPE EVERYONE HAD AN AWESOME 4TH