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i cannot sleep. so therefore i will update. in lower caps. :)
i had one of the best days with candace today. it really was an eye-opener for me. through any miscommunications we've experienced, i truly believe we are meant to be. i just, wow, i use to be so apathetic towards everything, especially in my relationships. but with her, i still get so giddy over her grabbing my hand, or resting her head on my shoulder, or her calling me when i'm half awake going "beeeb", or hearing her laugh and she gets her watery/squinty eyes look, or us just thinking the same things all the time about the most random subjects, or kissing at the most random times that i feel i could do forever, or when she tells me to hug her in this little voice she has sometimes, or sitting in barnes and nobles reading our magazines sitting side by side, and getting anxious if we don't hold hands within 5 minutes, and being able to meet up at 8 am, get breakfast, talk about how all the old ladies will be us one day, go home and fall asleep together, run around the house after each other, then sit on the couch reading magazines while she drinks coffee, and i usually grab a pepsi or mello yello, our trips around wal-mart with our free drinks, sitting in fuzzy chairs discussing intense topics, trying on shoes, being loud and obnoxious, dancing to rap music in the car, busting out "i will survive" on the highway, eating bruster's with our "buy 1, get 1 free" coupons and trying each other's flavors, and me spilliing it all over myself (or any food for that matter), sitting in atlanta bread company for hours talking about life and pasts and futures, kissing everywhere just cause we can't help it, taking our trips to asheville and naming people and discussing individuality, thinking ryan's is the best place in the world, trying to "make like a tree and branch" at all times, making hamburger helper, or some strange concoction we find in a recipe book that comes out quite alright, going to our college's and being there for each other through books, tuition, financial aid, and classrooms, celebrating each month of our relationship, and knowing we will do that even when its at 463 months, being there for each other through births and sickness, taking photos on parking garages, going to the library just for fun, and i could go on about so much more. i just, still am amazed at how i feel around her, regardless of the situation, i know we are lovers, best friends, confidants, and everything else in between. i've matured so much in life and love within these (almost) 8 months of us being together, and i am grateful for every moment we've spent together. i love her more every minute. ps: six more days to my babe's twenty-second birthday. woot. :D
so, i know, everyone was like "well thats nice emily, but what else has been going on" (or not) but work has been going smoothly. supposedly getting a raise (about time...) but no promotion yet. supposedly cause i don't have a 100% open schedule.. but who knows how much longer i will be at the 'ole blockbuster. i have a blast with the people i work with, its almost like family there. but i want to get into a volunteer program, and start really understanding the basics, and background work of coordinating a shelter. i talked to tracy about working third shift at krispy kreme, making more than i am at BB, but i think i need to broaden my skills. but we shall see. life is so conflicting sometimes. there are not enough hours in the day. or maybe i just need better time-management skills. :D
school is almost starting again..but i'm actually looking foward to this semester. i guess, in ways, i looked foward to them all. i have a knack for wanting to learn, just not taking exams. i'm taking 2 psych. courses, 2 women's studies courses, and 2 non-profit org. courses. so yay! much happiness about that. i want to join a few clubs this semester as well, most notably: pride, w, and the psychology club. i feel finally at ease and peace with my degree decision, and i love not having that "is this really what i want to do?" feeling in the back of my throat all the time. :)
and for the ending of this update: i think everyone should go listen to third eye blind's first cd. cause it's complete genius. and i'm still in love with it after 7 or so years when it first came out. god of wine, the background, i want you, motorcycle driveby, jumper, how's it gonna be, semi-charmed life=some of the best songs of the late 90's. almost as genius as sp's melon collie and in the infinite sadness, or tori's from the choirgirl hotel, but not quite there. but its still amazing and intense, and in the top 3 of emily's 'favorite cd's in the whole entire world and no one can top them' list.
ps: happy 22nd birthday jonathan. you will be forever missed, loved, and cherished.
-emily
i had one of the best days with candace today. it really was an eye-opener for me. through any miscommunications we've experienced, i truly believe we are meant to be. i just, wow, i use to be so apathetic towards everything, especially in my relationships. but with her, i still get so giddy over her grabbing my hand, or resting her head on my shoulder, or her calling me when i'm half awake going "beeeb", or hearing her laugh and she gets her watery/squinty eyes look, or us just thinking the same things all the time about the most random subjects, or kissing at the most random times that i feel i could do forever, or when she tells me to hug her in this little voice she has sometimes, or sitting in barnes and nobles reading our magazines sitting side by side, and getting anxious if we don't hold hands within 5 minutes, and being able to meet up at 8 am, get breakfast, talk about how all the old ladies will be us one day, go home and fall asleep together, run around the house after each other, then sit on the couch reading magazines while she drinks coffee, and i usually grab a pepsi or mello yello, our trips around wal-mart with our free drinks, sitting in fuzzy chairs discussing intense topics, trying on shoes, being loud and obnoxious, dancing to rap music in the car, busting out "i will survive" on the highway, eating bruster's with our "buy 1, get 1 free" coupons and trying each other's flavors, and me spilliing it all over myself (or any food for that matter), sitting in atlanta bread company for hours talking about life and pasts and futures, kissing everywhere just cause we can't help it, taking our trips to asheville and naming people and discussing individuality, thinking ryan's is the best place in the world, trying to "make like a tree and branch" at all times, making hamburger helper, or some strange concoction we find in a recipe book that comes out quite alright, going to our college's and being there for each other through books, tuition, financial aid, and classrooms, celebrating each month of our relationship, and knowing we will do that even when its at 463 months, being there for each other through births and sickness, taking photos on parking garages, going to the library just for fun, and i could go on about so much more. i just, still am amazed at how i feel around her, regardless of the situation, i know we are lovers, best friends, confidants, and everything else in between. i've matured so much in life and love within these (almost) 8 months of us being together, and i am grateful for every moment we've spent together. i love her more every minute. ps: six more days to my babe's twenty-second birthday. woot. :D
so, i know, everyone was like "well thats nice emily, but what else has been going on" (or not) but work has been going smoothly. supposedly getting a raise (about time...) but no promotion yet. supposedly cause i don't have a 100% open schedule.. but who knows how much longer i will be at the 'ole blockbuster. i have a blast with the people i work with, its almost like family there. but i want to get into a volunteer program, and start really understanding the basics, and background work of coordinating a shelter. i talked to tracy about working third shift at krispy kreme, making more than i am at BB, but i think i need to broaden my skills. but we shall see. life is so conflicting sometimes. there are not enough hours in the day. or maybe i just need better time-management skills. :D
school is almost starting again..but i'm actually looking foward to this semester. i guess, in ways, i looked foward to them all. i have a knack for wanting to learn, just not taking exams. i'm taking 2 psych. courses, 2 women's studies courses, and 2 non-profit org. courses. so yay! much happiness about that. i want to join a few clubs this semester as well, most notably: pride, w, and the psychology club. i feel finally at ease and peace with my degree decision, and i love not having that "is this really what i want to do?" feeling in the back of my throat all the time. :)
and for the ending of this update: i think everyone should go listen to third eye blind's first cd. cause it's complete genius. and i'm still in love with it after 7 or so years when it first came out. god of wine, the background, i want you, motorcycle driveby, jumper, how's it gonna be, semi-charmed life=some of the best songs of the late 90's. almost as genius as sp's melon collie and in the infinite sadness, or tori's from the choirgirl hotel, but not quite there. but its still amazing and intense, and in the top 3 of emily's 'favorite cd's in the whole entire world and no one can top them' list.
ps: happy 22nd birthday jonathan. you will be forever missed, loved, and cherished.
-emily