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So... i've found myself being really depressed lately... i mean really depressed... I know this feeling, i remember it all too well, and i hate it. I hoped i'd never feel this way again. Where somedays are good... shit happens and it just makes everything turn into hell. I think the worst part of everything going on lately it that it's all my fault. Well I guess not everything is exactly my fault but if you narrow it down enough I guess it is. Knowing that it's my fault or believing it's my fault just makes it all the worse. It's hard when all this shit happens, at least right now. It's mostly old stuff resurfacing, and then this problem that i know is all my fault because i put myself in the position to get hurt and i got hurt. I know i'm being vague, but if i wrote it, i don't think most people would really understand.

It's all so frustrated and i just want to be happy

meanwhile...

everything else seems to be going okay... except for the pats game at the moment which is frustrating me BEYOND BELIEF