i want to write the perfect song, and play it just for you, while you are tangled in sleep...
why does it bother me so much? why does it bother me that she does those things? when i shouldn't, im not in any place to care one fuckin bit, yet i do, i care so much that it makes me angry to hear about it when she tells me, it makes me frustrated to hear it, but most of all it hurts me to hear it. why? i dont know, maybe im too attacted when i shouldn't be, maybe i want her to be that attached to and it's not happening right now, but I want it to happen so bad. more than anything i think i've ever wanted to happen ever, and thats asaying a lot. I still dont understand why she isnt feeling it though. i've tried everything, i dont know why nothing is happeing yet. i guess i'll stick it out and keep trying, at least shes going out with me to places now and hanging out with me, that wasnt happening before. why am i even posting this? so i can hope in some attempt for people to understand what im feeling/going through and possibly relate? i have no idea but i'm just pouring my thoughts and feelings out for all to read for some reason. there are a million things i want her to know, but i can't find the right way to say/explain them, but i deffinately feel them, millions of emotions coursing through mem and not one of them comes out to wrong way, and she sure as hell doesnt feel any of the same ones as me...
-MaTT
-MaTT