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You know, I remember once that my psychologist, in one of our many what I thought to be pointless sessions, wrote down and told me something about me being single minded when it came to achieving my goals. So single minded that I easily get reckless in order to accomplish what I was determined enough to do. In context she was trying to convince me that I should turn this single mindness to my grades instead of whatever reason they thought I should of been in the school's psychologist office to begin with. But the fact still holds true, that when I want something done, I become single minded and do whatever it takes to get the job done, not thinking of the consequences.
Yeah, those words have never rung truer for me.
I woke up in the hospital this afternoon. Last thing I remember before that is everything going black as I felt myself slam against something hard when the spell got too strong. Turns out that was over a week ago. Since then I had been in a coma in the hospital. And if Tori hadn't found me and broken the spell that knocked me out, I would probably be dead now. And I didn't even accomplish anything, it was all for nothing. I was foolish, reckless, and wound up in a coma for week for nothing.
I'm pretty sure to say that I messed up would be an incredible understatement. Destiny was here and decided to take her turn at yelling while my parents were away talking to the doctors. Told me that I was a dumbass who she was pissed at for going behind everyone's back and doing something so stupid and reckless. To go to Vince to learn magick was stupid, considering Alex or Tori or Carly would of been willing to teach me. I gave up trying to defend myself when I realized it would go faster if I just listened. Besides, there wasn't much to argue with. I did do something reckless that blew up in my face, and I went behind everyone's back.
I'm not sure what's up with Vince, since when I did manage to break in long enough to ask her, she told me that she didn't know and he better stay that way if he knows whats good for him after the vision she got about the demon summoning in his apartment. Which does not sound good and makes me worried as to what happened, because Vince really didn't seem like the kind of guy who would do that. I had to basically blackmail him to get him to teach me anything, demon summoning seems completely unlike him.
Though when she finished she said that she was tired but she would be back, and everyone else wanted to talk to me as well. Which I should I thought would happen. I should of thought it out before I did all of this. I guess that goes with the whole single mindness thing. But I manage to freak out all the people I care about, which was the last thing I wanted to do. Great going Matt. Way to mess up everything.
Yeah, those words have never rung truer for me.
I woke up in the hospital this afternoon. Last thing I remember before that is everything going black as I felt myself slam against something hard when the spell got too strong. Turns out that was over a week ago. Since then I had been in a coma in the hospital. And if Tori hadn't found me and broken the spell that knocked me out, I would probably be dead now. And I didn't even accomplish anything, it was all for nothing. I was foolish, reckless, and wound up in a coma for week for nothing.
I'm pretty sure to say that I messed up would be an incredible understatement. Destiny was here and decided to take her turn at yelling while my parents were away talking to the doctors. Told me that I was a dumbass who she was pissed at for going behind everyone's back and doing something so stupid and reckless. To go to Vince to learn magick was stupid, considering Alex or Tori or Carly would of been willing to teach me. I gave up trying to defend myself when I realized it would go faster if I just listened. Besides, there wasn't much to argue with. I did do something reckless that blew up in my face, and I went behind everyone's back.
I'm not sure what's up with Vince, since when I did manage to break in long enough to ask her, she told me that she didn't know and he better stay that way if he knows whats good for him after the vision she got about the demon summoning in his apartment. Which does not sound good and makes me worried as to what happened, because Vince really didn't seem like the kind of guy who would do that. I had to basically blackmail him to get him to teach me anything, demon summoning seems completely unlike him.
Though when she finished she said that she was tired but she would be back, and everyone else wanted to talk to me as well. Which I should I thought would happen. I should of thought it out before I did all of this. I guess that goes with the whole single mindness thing. But I manage to freak out all the people I care about, which was the last thing I wanted to do. Great going Matt. Way to mess up everything.