Reeling
I left work an hour into my shift today. Very thankful for coworkers who are willing to cover my shift last notice. I think I'm getting sick, so today I'm setting aside for serious relaxation. I'm at the library after my Lakewood Phoenix pit-stop (they have an "immune tonic" tea blend that I wanted today) and am going to stock up on films and books. I really wish I had my paints at home so I could do something constructive today. I may do laundry too. Who knows.
I think I'm going to study chakras and taoism a little bit today. I've been feeling exceptionally detatched as of late and really feel the need to realign myself. I feel like everything is external, and it's really taking a toll on me. I used to be very hypersensory and hypersensitive and felt really felt how I was a part of everything and everyone around me. I don't know. Where there used to be one organism with many parts there are billions of new things, none of them are me.
I still think I should go to the doctor for my finger (and my ovary) but goddamn I hate hospitals more than you could understand.
Late meditations on love as an action before an emotion and as a complete state of being help me get where I need to be. Too bad a lot of people chalk my sentiment up to cheese and not actual living.
Jon's back in town and it's really strange how somewhat awkward it is trying to realign with him too. I guess not, we haven't seen each other in a year so it makes sense. Man I'm glad he's back!
I think I'm going to study chakras and taoism a little bit today. I've been feeling exceptionally detatched as of late and really feel the need to realign myself. I feel like everything is external, and it's really taking a toll on me. I used to be very hypersensory and hypersensitive and felt really felt how I was a part of everything and everyone around me. I don't know. Where there used to be one organism with many parts there are billions of new things, none of them are me.
I still think I should go to the doctor for my finger (and my ovary) but goddamn I hate hospitals more than you could understand.
Late meditations on love as an action before an emotion and as a complete state of being help me get where I need to be. Too bad a lot of people chalk my sentiment up to cheese and not actual living.
Jon's back in town and it's really strange how somewhat awkward it is trying to realign with him too. I guess not, we haven't seen each other in a year so it makes sense. Man I'm glad he's back!