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Oh dear God. My brother and I just had a sex talk.
He just told me about sex he's had. And where. And with.
I don't know what to do with myself.
Oh my God.
And out of 650 girls who auditioned in Birmingham, I was one of 132 chosen to go to L.A.
MY MOTHER MADE ME GO TO THE INTERVIEW.
I DO NOT WANT THIS.
SOME POOR GIRL IS SLITTING HER WRISTS BECAUSE SHE DID NOT GET CHOSEN.
And look at me!
I don't even want to go!
My mother doesn't even feel guilty!
Oh my God I can't believe my brother and I just had that conversation.
AND HE TOLD ME WHAT ALL THE GUYS AT HIS WORK SAY ABOUT ME.
THEY THINK I'M "hott shit."!
IS TODAY SOME KIND OF WHACKED UP WANNABE SELF ESTEEM BOOST?
Everyone is telling me to go to L.A.
I don't know.
My brother said I was wasting an amazing opportunity where money would basically be thrown at me.
But I'm really scared and I think the interview was just a fluke.
The first impression of me is kind of funny I guess.
I'm a big, sloppy mess.
And my brother thought I had sex!
And told me I could have someone "spend the night" when our parents are out of town as long as he "doesn't HEAR anything."
EXCUSE ME!?
THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO WAY!
My brother and I are big, sloppy messes.
(And he told me to go for Musso! :drool: If only! )
Not only will I not be having sex for a long time (Zachary!), I don't think I will have any boy issues to be concerned with. Only a lack of, which should be of no concern.
Right.
"Mom told me about that college boy!"
"Zach whatthefuck. I never went out with a college boy."
"The one from UA who runs track!!"
"Are you fucking kidding me!? I didn't go out with David! He's had a girlfriend his whole life!!"
"Oh. Well, good."
MUSSO IS LIKE 24!!!!!!!!! WHATTHEHELL!?
Sex! My brother has encouraged me to have sex!
Ohmyohmyohmyohmy!
WHAT IS GOING ON. I AM SO RETARDED RIGHT NOW.
...You know what though?
I'm really happy my brother talks to me and goes to see movies with me.
My older brother thinks I'm smart and funny and beautiful and capable of being whatever I want.
And soemtimes, the faith of your older brother is all you need.
I remember when we would hit and kick and scream at each other.
Now we're friends and we text each other and hang out.
Today has been great, apart from the weird.
I hung out with Jordan all day and completely spilled my guts to Joseph about things nobody else really listens to. And he didn't even judge me or say I was crazy.
He just accepted that that's what I thought.
You never realize how much you miss a good friend until you start talking to them again.
I'm glad I'm doing all of this.
I hope this glad is permanent.