Bill Gates is only leaving his kids 0.02 of his fortune. How fucking sad.
I'm not sure whether to thank God for giving humans an impulse or not. In fact the only time I can remember it has came in handy is while taking a test. I was always told "Go with your first impulse." Other times I rarely remember if it has got me anywhere. And arguably with the whole test deal, it didn't help either. I'm never one to think things through, never one to evaluate the options and see what will benefit me in the long run. If I could ever change one thing about me, that's what it would be. I often wonder what would have happened if I made different decisions. Maybe I would be more than a model/Backstreet Boys video girl/vampire. Maybe I would be much less. Of course, I'm proud of myself for making it that far at least.
When recommended to start modeling I was still in high school. I was eating at a restaurant with a group of my friends. I can remember it perfectly. I ordered a salad and a water. Being from an all girls academy trying to fit in was seemingly impossible. Full of the rich pretty girls you always wanted to be. A lady approached me that day, took a seat beside me and simply asked "Have you ever considered modeling?" That question changed my life. Of course the impulse took over to do it. To throw myself into that cruel world of starvation, not feeling good enough, and the pressure to be perfect. All at such a young age. I wonder what would have happened if I graduated with some kind of degree in a totally different career.
I don't regret the path I chose, just simply wonder who else I could be. Modeling isn't as bad as people make it out to be when you can balance the pressure. A positive attitude and learning to do thing the right way is what will keep you out of trouble. A system they often fail to teach you. As i'm sure is true with most careers.
Enough reflecting for now, my friends page is awful slow. Any recommendations of who to add is much appreciated.
When recommended to start modeling I was still in high school. I was eating at a restaurant with a group of my friends. I can remember it perfectly. I ordered a salad and a water. Being from an all girls academy trying to fit in was seemingly impossible. Full of the rich pretty girls you always wanted to be. A lady approached me that day, took a seat beside me and simply asked "Have you ever considered modeling?" That question changed my life. Of course the impulse took over to do it. To throw myself into that cruel world of starvation, not feeling good enough, and the pressure to be perfect. All at such a young age. I wonder what would have happened if I graduated with some kind of degree in a totally different career.
I don't regret the path I chose, just simply wonder who else I could be. Modeling isn't as bad as people make it out to be when you can balance the pressure. A positive attitude and learning to do thing the right way is what will keep you out of trouble. A system they often fail to teach you. As i'm sure is true with most careers.
Enough reflecting for now, my friends page is awful slow. Any recommendations of who to add is much appreciated.