--Best Friends Means Pull The Fucking Trigger--
Hey Everyone..
haven't update in a while now...theres nothing much to say though. pretty much bored. don't think i'll be updating this much so yeah. jut thought i'd let ya'll know or something. Still feeling crappy but bleh. haven't been doing much lately and there's shit that's going on at home..:( which sucks. haven't seen mario lately. so that's good. he's such an asshole!!...needs to die...freakin' perverted fuck head. hah im dumb. oh yeah. did i tell ya'll that Tasha invited me, joanna, and cheyenne. to her party that's this Saturday i believe...yea. i might go im not quite sure if im going yet. some other people are coming as well, i think. but have no idea who the hell they are. only one i know is this one chic. but i really don't like her. she's pretty much a slutty bitch. yeah. bleh, hungry. haha..yeah dont have money..well i do. but not enough. what else?..that one creepy cop guy came to our class..to like check for drugs and shit...hah..im glad that they didn't like check in everyone's stuff..that'd suck if they did. since i always carry around my blade, and the switchblade that joanna gave me...........yeah..................+++++++++++++++++++++++blah nothing to say right now. oh i wrote this poem....but i don't think im going to post it here..i might though. but i don't have my spiral with me..with all the poems and shit. i left it at home...urgh. i wish i did'nt but i was stupid and left it. and i fell asleep pretty early last night...so tired. and for some odd reason i thought today was saturday..don't ask why. and i feel a tiny bit bad...for like....CuTtiNg...*cough cough* yeah...and i told a buddy of mine that i wouldn't cut myself again. and i pretty much lied to him. but bleh...didn't mean to do it..but i did. don't know..i just like doing it at times..like an addiction i suppose. so sorry to everyone for doing it..ya'll have the right to yell at me for doing it...yeah. im stupid. huh? yeah..*sigh* dunno but i get use to it after a while. whenever the heartaches kick in that's when i just want to stab myself in the heart. or better, have my heart ripped out of me...yeah..that'd be great. saw mickyJ yesterday *smiles* haha i was going to kick him for what he called me. then he's like "im just kiddin." blah blah blah was funny...didn't hurt him...oh he slapped me one time..and i slapped him back and he's telling william not to mess with me or w/e cuz i slap hard..haha...i didn't even slap him that hard you know....but eh..he's only a lil boy..haha :) but he had to go home i guess...so yeah...my mom was yelling at me as well saying all this crap...and blah!!! she thought i was mad at her..which i just said shit back. and justyeah! it was crazy i guess...............................i hate when people think im mad. and then ask me whats wrong whats wrong. it's like SHUT THE FUCK UP and LEAVE ME ALONE!!! then i'd get mad..lol..yeah i get mad too easily. and moody of course..one minute okay next pissed off..then yeah you get it...*sigh* tired. hungry. feelin a bit dizzy..but yeah..happens alot. might be going over to tasha's later today..yeah she's changing..i guess and FINALLY!! she's not wanting to be like me anymore!! woo woo!! yeah..i never wanted her to do the things i did such as cutting....and just blah..everything....so now she's changing in a good way though..yeah..well that's all for now i'll update later..
Take care
<3 S1l3nT <3
"just wither away while beauty is forever in you..."
" should i smile because yur my friend. or smile because that's all we'll ever be?"
"suicide is beautiful with its intamacy just you and whatever you imagine"
"how do you know im hurting if you cannot see my pain to wear it on my body tells what words cannot explain"...
**just some quotes**
haven't update in a while now...theres nothing much to say though. pretty much bored. don't think i'll be updating this much so yeah. jut thought i'd let ya'll know or something. Still feeling crappy but bleh. haven't been doing much lately and there's shit that's going on at home..:( which sucks. haven't seen mario lately. so that's good. he's such an asshole!!...needs to die...freakin' perverted fuck head. hah im dumb. oh yeah. did i tell ya'll that Tasha invited me, joanna, and cheyenne. to her party that's this Saturday i believe...yea. i might go im not quite sure if im going yet. some other people are coming as well, i think. but have no idea who the hell they are. only one i know is this one chic. but i really don't like her. she's pretty much a slutty bitch. yeah. bleh, hungry. haha..yeah dont have money..well i do. but not enough. what else?..that one creepy cop guy came to our class..to like check for drugs and shit...hah..im glad that they didn't like check in everyone's stuff..that'd suck if they did. since i always carry around my blade, and the switchblade that joanna gave me...........yeah..................+++++++++++++++++++++++blah nothing to say right now. oh i wrote this poem....but i don't think im going to post it here..i might though. but i don't have my spiral with me..with all the poems and shit. i left it at home...urgh. i wish i did'nt but i was stupid and left it. and i fell asleep pretty early last night...so tired. and for some odd reason i thought today was saturday..don't ask why. and i feel a tiny bit bad...for like....CuTtiNg...*cough cough* yeah...and i told a buddy of mine that i wouldn't cut myself again. and i pretty much lied to him. but bleh...didn't mean to do it..but i did. don't know..i just like doing it at times..like an addiction i suppose. so sorry to everyone for doing it..ya'll have the right to yell at me for doing it...yeah. im stupid. huh? yeah..*sigh* dunno but i get use to it after a while. whenever the heartaches kick in that's when i just want to stab myself in the heart. or better, have my heart ripped out of me...yeah..that'd be great. saw mickyJ yesterday *smiles* haha i was going to kick him for what he called me. then he's like "im just kiddin." blah blah blah was funny...didn't hurt him...oh he slapped me one time..and i slapped him back and he's telling william not to mess with me or w/e cuz i slap hard..haha...i didn't even slap him that hard you know....but eh..he's only a lil boy..haha :) but he had to go home i guess...so yeah...my mom was yelling at me as well saying all this crap...and blah!!! she thought i was mad at her..which i just said shit back. and justyeah! it was crazy i guess...............................i hate when people think im mad. and then ask me whats wrong whats wrong. it's like SHUT THE FUCK UP and LEAVE ME ALONE!!! then i'd get mad..lol..yeah i get mad too easily. and moody of course..one minute okay next pissed off..then yeah you get it...*sigh* tired. hungry. feelin a bit dizzy..but yeah..happens alot. might be going over to tasha's later today..yeah she's changing..i guess and FINALLY!! she's not wanting to be like me anymore!! woo woo!! yeah..i never wanted her to do the things i did such as cutting....and just blah..everything....so now she's changing in a good way though..yeah..well that's all for now i'll update later..
Take care
<3 S1l3nT <3
"just wither away while beauty is forever in you..."
" should i smile because yur my friend. or smile because that's all we'll ever be?"
"suicide is beautiful with its intamacy just you and whatever you imagine"
"how do you know im hurting if you cannot see my pain to wear it on my body tells what words cannot explain"...
**just some quotes**