obsession.desire.depression.nothing is meant to be, love never wanted me...
Heyz,
just here, nothing to do just tired and a bit pissed off but eh, ....i was so bored at lunch, just sat there stabbin my bear. heh yeah, *Sigh* = ^ . ^ =
Blah Blah Blah Blah.......nothing to do right now. want to go home, but then again i don't because then my mom would probably ask me what's wrong. Ah, I dont like it much when people ask me what's wrong. again, i cried myself to sleep, went to sleep early..like at 7pm, and just cried and thought about --Stuff--, *screams* So much is on my mind right now, and realy dont know what to do, and i cant "hurt" myself,....promised a friend....and the pain in my heart or w/e..is back. that sux ass.. i hate it....it hurts....just rip my heart out. wrote like 2 more poems, but i'll have to post them later, i might make a few changes, or just i dont know. ah, feeling kinda dizzy as well...pain in the ass. Hah! Micky J whatever his name is..came over the other day!! ^.^ he's pretty kool, yup yups. hah, he like slapped me in the face and then later on i got him back..so hah. i kicked him as well, but not that hard cuz yeah...heh, he's so cute but eh. who cares. what i find kinda....woah,..is that he's going out with Tasha!!....wtf? makes no sense,...cuz she's older, and is about to turn 14..and yeah...crazyness, hah my bro. said his bday is a day after mine! that's pretty kool. dont think i'll be doing anything on my bday..just stay home...ah forgot my bday is on a Monday!! no....urg, i should like invite ya'll just to come over and hang out....and be stupid..and yeah. that'll be fun i guess, and if ya'll can sleepover....Yup Yup. and i dont even know wat i want anymore...just want to Die, sometimes.....get away from everything...every little fucking thing...that's just driving me crazy right now....*sigh* i'd want like a camera or something..but eh, i think it's too much.............video games, havent played them much.....bought BLOODRAYNE but i havent played it in a while......and clothes,...bleh, i have a whole bunch so bleh............and posters, nah,i might be taking them all down, including HIM, which i dont want to..but eh i'll just have to wait and see what happened. and of course, EMILY! is going to stay on my door or w/e...yup yups..my mom's wanting to get one side of the wall painted..and then she WIll let me paint/ whatever i want....dunno i'd wannna paint all over my room...but eh i know i wont be able to so fuck it. ...i think i should go now, so i'll just update later once i get home..........
o yeah, and then i'll put this one link thing, of something my buddy sent me!! aw, he's so sweet!... ^.^
take care
laters
just here, nothing to do just tired and a bit pissed off but eh, ....i was so bored at lunch, just sat there stabbin my bear. heh yeah, *Sigh* = ^ . ^ =
Blah Blah Blah Blah.......nothing to do right now. want to go home, but then again i don't because then my mom would probably ask me what's wrong. Ah, I dont like it much when people ask me what's wrong. again, i cried myself to sleep, went to sleep early..like at 7pm, and just cried and thought about --Stuff--, *screams* So much is on my mind right now, and realy dont know what to do, and i cant "hurt" myself,....promised a friend....and the pain in my heart or w/e..is back. that sux ass.. i hate it....it hurts....just rip my heart out. wrote like 2 more poems, but i'll have to post them later, i might make a few changes, or just i dont know. ah, feeling kinda dizzy as well...pain in the ass. Hah! Micky J whatever his name is..came over the other day!! ^.^ he's pretty kool, yup yups. hah, he like slapped me in the face and then later on i got him back..so hah. i kicked him as well, but not that hard cuz yeah...heh, he's so cute but eh. who cares. what i find kinda....woah,..is that he's going out with Tasha!!....wtf? makes no sense,...cuz she's older, and is about to turn 14..and yeah...crazyness, hah my bro. said his bday is a day after mine! that's pretty kool. dont think i'll be doing anything on my bday..just stay home...ah forgot my bday is on a Monday!! no....urg, i should like invite ya'll just to come over and hang out....and be stupid..and yeah. that'll be fun i guess, and if ya'll can sleepover....Yup Yup. and i dont even know wat i want anymore...just want to Die, sometimes.....get away from everything...every little fucking thing...that's just driving me crazy right now....*sigh* i'd want like a camera or something..but eh, i think it's too much.............video games, havent played them much.....bought BLOODRAYNE but i havent played it in a while......and clothes,...bleh, i have a whole bunch so bleh............and posters, nah,i might be taking them all down, including HIM, which i dont want to..but eh i'll just have to wait and see what happened. and of course, EMILY! is going to stay on my door or w/e...yup yups..my mom's wanting to get one side of the wall painted..and then she WIll let me paint/ whatever i want....dunno i'd wannna paint all over my room...but eh i know i wont be able to so fuck it. ...i think i should go now, so i'll just update later once i get home..........
o yeah, and then i'll put this one link thing, of something my buddy sent me!! aw, he's so sweet!... ^.^
take care
laters