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No matter how hard I try to be a good person I feel like I always get shit on. All bullshit aside I know I come off as a sarcastic bitch but honestly if you get to know me , you know thats just my way of trying to be funny and I actually genuinely care about people. I'd do anything for the people I care about and I'd like to hope they'd do the same. I'd like to believe that there are some decent people left out there but lately I've been nothing but disappointed :( People can be such assholes, so ugly sometimes it hurts. People who I actually cared about and considered my friends have let me down and its so hard to go back to the trust there once was. I haven't cried like I cried today in months, and while it felt good to let everything out , I'm still sad =/ I feel like running away, I don't want to be strong anymore. Everyone tells me how proud of me they are that i'm almost 'done' with school and that i'm working and doing so good with my life but i don't feel it. Days like today I just want to crawl into a hole and not come out for a while. I want everything and everyone to just disasppear. I had such a shitty day yesterday that I said to myself today was going to be a better day. First thing I did this morning was check my bank account and it actually made me cry. I wish I wasn't always so broke. My job, working with international students has made me so resentful. Resentful that I can't live life like them, wastefully and frivolously..without a care in the world. I wish my heart didn't have room for such feelings =/