Feb 27, 2006 23:03
She is so beautiful. She always will be. I miss her so much.
My wee Twinkleybum <3 ='(
I can't understand it. Survived the anaesthetic, the entire operation and still had the energy to run around for an hour afterwards. Then Dr Inglis calls back to say she'd just suddenly gone....why is that? What happened? I don't really know. No-one knows.
Karena's beating herself up quite badly about it, she feels that it's her fault. I wish she'd stop hating herself for it. I acknowledge it was an accident - it's not her I'm furious with - it's the PDSA.
If they'd taken Twinkle in on Saturday morning as they'd arranged, rather than fobbing her off with false information, then I guess she would still be here with us today. And then Chilli and her could have had lots of dead lovely cute wee ratties <3 =) they'd have been so gorgeous. But no. Too much trouble for the kind, caring PDSA, out to help animals. Nah. Just a rat, vermin, why bother? Arses.
Even if they didn't tend to her, why did they call back on Friday night to say they could? The time wasted travelling all the way up to Tollcross could've been used better going to Blantyre and getting an operation straight away, rather than waiting until Monday with the chances being slimmer. Can't believe how incompetent some people are =@
One thing is for sure - Domino and Chilli will NEVER be taken to the PDSA again. Ever. And they can be expecting legal action. Poor Chilli is heartbroken AGAIN, because of not only Spike's death, but now Twinkle's too. An unnecessary and untimely one. She was far too young. You should've seen the look on Chilli's face he was so gutted, kept trying to get out of the cage to see her. Both him and Domino were the same, they loved her so much - almost as if because she was the baby, the wee lassie they were looking after her.
It just doesn't feel real. But I'll never forget her or any of the others. Poor Iain Inglis did his best too, he was really genuinely upset that she'd gotten so far only to give up at the last hurdle. He didn't even take any money for the operation - so kind and thoughtful. Haha the bus driver was the same, I owe both of them a drink =) I just feel that absolutely everyone involved has lost something really precious from this whole catastrophe. And the PDSA are to blame initially for that.
I love you, Twinkle =) always will. Remember when I cried and cried to Karena so she would buy you for me? And how happy you were when you got home? Do you remember how much I loved you right from the beginning, when I just wanted to pick you up and run away with you? Remember how much Domino, and even more so Chilli, protected you from big evil Smudge the massive bumbling idiot of a dog? Hahaha =D As Karena said before she left you there....she really misses you. She loved you so much as well =) <3
Say hi to Spike for us =) and the rest, if you get on well with hamsters and mice haha... <3
Sammie
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