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i'm not used to this at all...
this feeling that i can't even put into words.
when i'm with him i feel so safe, so comfortable, so secure. when i'm not with him i feel like everything is wrong and there's nothing that will make it go away. when i know there's a day when i wont see him, i feel like it's a waste and i can't wait for it to be over and when he calls me i feel all those problems i had completely vanished.
i joke about other guys all of the time and i make light of so many situations because do i dare let there be a serious moment where i slip and say that you're the best thing that's ever happened to me and i love you so much?
i couldn't let that happen...
because i've never wanted to say that to anyone before, because this time i mean it with all of my heart.
but what is he thinking? and is it ok to feel the way i do? seriously, is it?
how can i say these things to you and completely open up and let you know how much a part of my life you are? no, i'd rather make a joke that im going to find someone else, some other hot guy and see what you say and then the feeling inside thats killing me only gets stronger and all i really want is to tell you i love you.
because sometimes i cry a lot over him and not a bad cry that he did something to hurt me... a cry like there's something inside that's eating away at me that i want to tell him, tell you everything, but im afraid to.
theres all these negative thoughts in the back of my mind that stop me from saying it
i feel not good enough for him. like literally he's going to wake up one day and realize that i'm not so great at all and he was wasting his time.
BUT
if i really love him and i think he could feel the same way then how could he think those negative things? theyre just figments of my imagination because when it really boils down
i am completely terrified of actually loving someone and letting them know that. so what i'm asking i guess is
how do you tell someone you love them more than the world?
this feeling that i can't even put into words.
when i'm with him i feel so safe, so comfortable, so secure. when i'm not with him i feel like everything is wrong and there's nothing that will make it go away. when i know there's a day when i wont see him, i feel like it's a waste and i can't wait for it to be over and when he calls me i feel all those problems i had completely vanished.
i joke about other guys all of the time and i make light of so many situations because do i dare let there be a serious moment where i slip and say that you're the best thing that's ever happened to me and i love you so much?
i couldn't let that happen...
because i've never wanted to say that to anyone before, because this time i mean it with all of my heart.
but what is he thinking? and is it ok to feel the way i do? seriously, is it?
how can i say these things to you and completely open up and let you know how much a part of my life you are? no, i'd rather make a joke that im going to find someone else, some other hot guy and see what you say and then the feeling inside thats killing me only gets stronger and all i really want is to tell you i love you.
because sometimes i cry a lot over him and not a bad cry that he did something to hurt me... a cry like there's something inside that's eating away at me that i want to tell him, tell you everything, but im afraid to.
theres all these negative thoughts in the back of my mind that stop me from saying it
i feel not good enough for him. like literally he's going to wake up one day and realize that i'm not so great at all and he was wasting his time.
BUT
if i really love him and i think he could feel the same way then how could he think those negative things? theyre just figments of my imagination because when it really boils down
i am completely terrified of actually loving someone and letting them know that. so what i'm asking i guess is
how do you tell someone you love them more than the world?