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"If you let me listen I'll make you feel clear
You spend your time waiting for anyone to see
If you should stop for a while
You will find me standing by"
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So for some reason I haven't been in a cheery mood the past few days. I keep taking everything and taking it and taking it until finally I blow. I don't miss him at all, but I shouldn't be thinking so much about what he's done, because I can't change it or fix it, I tried and got pushed away but kept on trying. I never give up but this time I had to. I miss seeing his family and talking to them, and spending time at their house. I miss the way he used to be but he's changed and there's no going back to that, so I'm just dealing. I guess I've just been thinking about things too much, and I need to cool off. School's going well so far, and that, I'm happy about. I don't even care about that drama or anything that goes on anymore, it's so pathetic, and if people judge me and accuse me of whatever, they're not me; they'll never be me. People are changing constantly and I'm watching it all happen and taking it in slowly. Everyone has their own battles to fight, so why bother making anyone's life harder than it already is, really? I can't say I never get angry, because I do, when I'm really angry it's like a fuse blew up, and I'm just silent most of the time. I'm just so sick to death of critisism; as if getting it at home isn't bad enough. Yet, I know there are people out there in worse situations, so I try to focus on that, and how I can help OTHER people, because being alone and trying to make it through doesn't help me at all. All of this myspace drama, and everything else is so clearly ridiculous, people actually get mad and/or jealous if people have the same song as them, or talk to some of the same people as them? Yeah, come on, grow up. If that's the attitude reality's gonna give you a nice slap across the face. That's all mainly everyone talk about, everyone stalks eachother, and talks about eachother, just from MYSPACE, and I mean really, grow up, myspace doesn't make a person. Think of how much time is wasted on that; time when you could be out enjoying yourself, or out enjoying everything around you, but instead you sit alone on the computer looking for peoples faults to pick out, meanwhile, you don't even realize that you're not perfect, and you have some major faults too. It's all the truth, and most people are addicted to it.
[And to those who actually take the time and read this, thanks.]