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So um, I haven't updated in a while.
I feel like I don't have that much to say, I'm trying to deal with things the best I can and keep smiling through it, it gets really hard sometimes though. It's almost like walking on eggshells, and what I had before, isn't there anymore, it's like a disappearing act. I still wish on stars and at 11:11, and sometimes, it really does work, it makes me feel better in some ways. I'm trying to look forward and not look back, but I was sitting in my room late last night/early this morning just listening to music and it brought back a lot of memories, and it honestly made me cry. But hey, you can't change someone who isn't willing to change, even after talking to them. It's just sad to see that someone you once cared about so much change for the worst and you not being able to do anything about it. I still care, but I bent over backwards trying and putting all my effort into something and someone who didn't want anything. I'm not sorry I did, I'm not sorry about anything I've said, what happens, will happen. Karma.
On a better note, I've been talking to my Uncle a lot, and we have a lot in common. I'll hopefully be going to the city to visit him and go through Central Park and everything with him, and I'm looking forward to that. I'm also going to Boston Labor Day weekend, and I'm going to go visit one of my mom's good friends, John. And we'll tour around there.
It feels like the summer just started, and I really don't want it to end so soon.
:o(
I feel like I don't have that much to say, I'm trying to deal with things the best I can and keep smiling through it, it gets really hard sometimes though. It's almost like walking on eggshells, and what I had before, isn't there anymore, it's like a disappearing act. I still wish on stars and at 11:11, and sometimes, it really does work, it makes me feel better in some ways. I'm trying to look forward and not look back, but I was sitting in my room late last night/early this morning just listening to music and it brought back a lot of memories, and it honestly made me cry. But hey, you can't change someone who isn't willing to change, even after talking to them. It's just sad to see that someone you once cared about so much change for the worst and you not being able to do anything about it. I still care, but I bent over backwards trying and putting all my effort into something and someone who didn't want anything. I'm not sorry I did, I'm not sorry about anything I've said, what happens, will happen. Karma.
On a better note, I've been talking to my Uncle a lot, and we have a lot in common. I'll hopefully be going to the city to visit him and go through Central Park and everything with him, and I'm looking forward to that. I'm also going to Boston Labor Day weekend, and I'm going to go visit one of my mom's good friends, John. And we'll tour around there.
It feels like the summer just started, and I really don't want it to end so soon.
:o(