Last night I stayed on call all night.
"The world's a rollercoster, and I am not strapped in."
When was my last update? A week or so ago?
My great grandmother died a few nights ago. The wake was last night. What I noticed there was the same thing I noticed at the wake of my other great grandmother. I noticed that there was barely a tear when I arrived. No one was crying. I expected a somber atmosphere, but what I approached was a respectful atmosphere. There was actually laughing and smiling as various family members ran into each other after so and so many years. It was almost refreshing, seeing how death can be a quasi-joyous time. Shit, at my wake I want people smoking bud or something. As long as no one is crying. Death is unavoidable, no sense in worrying about it. It's just another step in life.
Due to the passing, I'm not going to go to school next week. I also have a few meetings and such to go to for the job, so even if I went I'd be checking out early. Though appealing, the fact that my last day of school, my last day at Southwest, is tomorrow, it's also quite hectic. I have to do my Italian notebook, write out a piece of music for guitar class, study for my three exams that I'm taking tomorrow, study for the SATs, and deal with incessant bugging from teachers and peers alike on how going back to Killian is such a bad idea. Speaking of which...
I'm going to Killian next year, and that's it. People keep giving me shit about how, "It's your senior year". Fuck it, bro. I'm not going to Killian to make new friends. I'm going there to get away from Southwest. Like I posted so long ago, that school just depresses me. The people, the stupid, stupid people. I'm going to go to Killian to school and leave. I'm not planning on going to any Senior activities either. Too much money that I could be using on more important things, music equipment, my car, insurance, GAS.
Yet, though I'm so content with my departure, I am going to miss quite a few people. For instance, I'll miss Elly, even though I wont be seeing her whether I stayed or left. I'm also gonna miss the random crazy people from my classes, like Lourdes, Annette, Nick, Daniella Stroppa, Bethany, Leilani, Alina (see, I will miss you, kid), and more. Especially Annette. I don't know why, but she always seemed to sincerely care when she heard about any problems I was facing. That, and I've had a childish crush on her for who knows how long.
And we have to honestly admit that after a while, we'll all forget about each other. When we all graduate, we'll say that we're gonna keep in touch, thjat we're gonna stay friends forever, but we all know that that isnt necessarily true. Half of us are leaving the city/state, and the majority of us are only friends cause we see each other everyday in school. It's a somber note I'm ringin, but it's honest nonetheless. Either way, I will remember all of you guys. Even Bryan and Rae, whom both I hate with the fire of a thousand hells, will be acknowledged. No matter how I feel now, there was a time when I sincerely cared for them, and we had our fun. This is all just a proven case of Temporaryism: the acknowledgement that everything is temporary and that everything will eventually run its course.
And that's it. There's my final goodbye.
-T
When was my last update? A week or so ago?
My great grandmother died a few nights ago. The wake was last night. What I noticed there was the same thing I noticed at the wake of my other great grandmother. I noticed that there was barely a tear when I arrived. No one was crying. I expected a somber atmosphere, but what I approached was a respectful atmosphere. There was actually laughing and smiling as various family members ran into each other after so and so many years. It was almost refreshing, seeing how death can be a quasi-joyous time. Shit, at my wake I want people smoking bud or something. As long as no one is crying. Death is unavoidable, no sense in worrying about it. It's just another step in life.
Due to the passing, I'm not going to go to school next week. I also have a few meetings and such to go to for the job, so even if I went I'd be checking out early. Though appealing, the fact that my last day of school, my last day at Southwest, is tomorrow, it's also quite hectic. I have to do my Italian notebook, write out a piece of music for guitar class, study for my three exams that I'm taking tomorrow, study for the SATs, and deal with incessant bugging from teachers and peers alike on how going back to Killian is such a bad idea. Speaking of which...
I'm going to Killian next year, and that's it. People keep giving me shit about how, "It's your senior year". Fuck it, bro. I'm not going to Killian to make new friends. I'm going there to get away from Southwest. Like I posted so long ago, that school just depresses me. The people, the stupid, stupid people. I'm going to go to Killian to school and leave. I'm not planning on going to any Senior activities either. Too much money that I could be using on more important things, music equipment, my car, insurance, GAS.
Yet, though I'm so content with my departure, I am going to miss quite a few people. For instance, I'll miss Elly, even though I wont be seeing her whether I stayed or left. I'm also gonna miss the random crazy people from my classes, like Lourdes, Annette, Nick, Daniella Stroppa, Bethany, Leilani, Alina (see, I will miss you, kid), and more. Especially Annette. I don't know why, but she always seemed to sincerely care when she heard about any problems I was facing. That, and I've had a childish crush on her for who knows how long.
And we have to honestly admit that after a while, we'll all forget about each other. When we all graduate, we'll say that we're gonna keep in touch, thjat we're gonna stay friends forever, but we all know that that isnt necessarily true. Half of us are leaving the city/state, and the majority of us are only friends cause we see each other everyday in school. It's a somber note I'm ringin, but it's honest nonetheless. Either way, I will remember all of you guys. Even Bryan and Rae, whom both I hate with the fire of a thousand hells, will be acknowledged. No matter how I feel now, there was a time when I sincerely cared for them, and we had our fun. This is all just a proven case of Temporaryism: the acknowledgement that everything is temporary and that everything will eventually run its course.
And that's it. There's my final goodbye.
-T