I [can't] keep you jealously to myself.

[_madehersmile]

Alone again, naturally.

She's right.

But no one will understand my reasoning. No one will think I care about any of this.

Fuck you Rachel for ignoring her on Thursday and treating her like shit. Don't let your hatred of me carry over to her.

I havent wanted to end this much since the hospital. I hate me all over again.

-T

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[yellowpez]

Will:

I feel like I should give you some input. I'm not angry, I don't hate you, I don't feel anything about the situation you've put yourself in, so maybe my neutral standpoint will bring some clarity to you or whoever else reads this.

You're a self-proclaimed "temporaryist", and I think that's a just warning to whoever wants to date you.

I think we all wanted to witness a change in you when you got a new girlfriend. In all honesty, I'd love to see you in a healthy relationship.. but you've proven to yourself and to everyone over and over that you can't do it. If you give a shit about the sake of other girls in the future, then don't bother having relationships for a while. If you like being alone, that's fine. No one should hate you for that. But they do hate you for deceiving them into thinking that you are capable of having healthy friendships/relationships with them.

In any case, I will always think of you being incredibly unstable. I will admit that although I have a pretty good knowledge about who you are, I will never completely understand why you get into good things and leave them immediately. I don't think you'll change, and I don't think anyone will be able to change YOU. Because I've come to realize that the reason I kept coming back was because I had that inner womanly need of having to change who you are when I knew you were broken.

There's no advice I can give you. You are who you are. People will enjoy you, people will hate you and they'll all just have to deal with it. I just think you should just let go and fall into something good and not overanalyze it and just enjoy it ..but that's not what you do. Because it's not who you are. So there's nothing else to say.

-LE

[_madehersmile]

you know more about me than almost anyone else. Maybe you and Mika know the most about me.

I appreciate your input. I don't care what others think.

I know that relationships are horrendous for me. I told that to Romy and Mike last night.

We can all agree. I'm better off alone anyways. Two and a half weeks, and none of you will know me anymore. I'll be gone and things will be back to the way they were.

All in good time.

-T

[_makemesmile]

i agree with absolutely everything you've said. no one couldve said that better.