Things
These past few weeks have been.... thought provoking. People will never stop amazing me, both in completely terrible and incredibly amazing ways. Well here's some of my many thoughts as of lately, if you care.
I've been thinking alot about the truth, just as a concept. It's so hard for people to accept. I'm sorry for them.
Just when I lose faith in people, there's a bunch who just show me how amazing they are. Just when I need you, there you guys are and that means so incredibly much to me. There's at least a dozen of you that have helped me out lately, and i love you all so much. I'm so blessed and I know that even more now and I thank God for you guys everyday.
Pain is such a tricky thing. I mean pain is pain and you can't compare your pain to anyone else's I believe, and always have. But pain can make you do such crazy and awful things. I know because I've done them. And you can't explain why, you just do them.
Depression's a tricky concept too, if you think about it. Because anyone who's ever had clinical depression knows that it's different than just feeling depressed, which is an emotion that everyone feels. I wish i could explain depression, but it's impossible for me. But I'm sick of people acting like having depression is something you can control. It's a disease and you can't control it anymore than someone can control cancer. You can get it under control seemingly for a while, but there's always relapses. I'm just trying to explain it. That's all.
So I guess i should do homework now, but I'll put some lyrics that i like for ya.
PS <3 you guys again. thanks.
*but theres something wrong
and i dont know why
Why you
you never say goodbye
so please just leave
you dont mean that much to me
you keep the ring
ill take thosen Saturdays in bed
cause i know you need them
as for me its nothing new
just another two years
i wish we'd always wake up new
Refreshed and born again
with nothing left to lose
but we dream too much
and who needs a crutch
pull off the bandage
theres no wound
so please just leave
you dont mean that much to me
give back the ring
keep all those summers with your friends
Cause you know you need them
as for me its nothing new
just another two years
that im here losing sleep
your sore thumb
Your best defense is miles from home
oh and it reads like a letter
with the words all broken
erased them with a razorblade
I was lost then I found you
But I'm breaking down now that*
I've been thinking alot about the truth, just as a concept. It's so hard for people to accept. I'm sorry for them.
Just when I lose faith in people, there's a bunch who just show me how amazing they are. Just when I need you, there you guys are and that means so incredibly much to me. There's at least a dozen of you that have helped me out lately, and i love you all so much. I'm so blessed and I know that even more now and I thank God for you guys everyday.
Pain is such a tricky thing. I mean pain is pain and you can't compare your pain to anyone else's I believe, and always have. But pain can make you do such crazy and awful things. I know because I've done them. And you can't explain why, you just do them.
Depression's a tricky concept too, if you think about it. Because anyone who's ever had clinical depression knows that it's different than just feeling depressed, which is an emotion that everyone feels. I wish i could explain depression, but it's impossible for me. But I'm sick of people acting like having depression is something you can control. It's a disease and you can't control it anymore than someone can control cancer. You can get it under control seemingly for a while, but there's always relapses. I'm just trying to explain it. That's all.
So I guess i should do homework now, but I'll put some lyrics that i like for ya.
PS <3 you guys again. thanks.
*but theres something wrong
and i dont know why
Why you
you never say goodbye
so please just leave
you dont mean that much to me
you keep the ring
ill take thosen Saturdays in bed
cause i know you need them
as for me its nothing new
just another two years
i wish we'd always wake up new
Refreshed and born again
with nothing left to lose
but we dream too much
and who needs a crutch
pull off the bandage
theres no wound
so please just leave
you dont mean that much to me
give back the ring
keep all those summers with your friends
Cause you know you need them
as for me its nothing new
just another two years
that im here losing sleep
your sore thumb
Your best defense is miles from home
oh and it reads like a letter
with the words all broken
erased them with a razorblade
I was lost then I found you
But I'm breaking down now that*