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To a certain eating disorder:
Look what you have done to me. You have my mind twisted and confused. I used to be okay before you came into my life. I can never look in the mirror again and be happy because of you. I know I will live with you forever. No one will ever accept me because I will always be too thin or too fat. I am fat because of you and you screwed me over for life. You will always dwell secretly inside of me no matter what I look like. I love you and I hate you. I miss you at times and would like to ignore you at other times. What is wrong with me. I want to blame you on skating and on people, but I know its because of my stupid perfectionistic tendencies and my control addiction. I would like to think that I can control you, but I know that I can't.
Look what you have done to me. You have my mind twisted and confused. I used to be okay before you came into my life. I can never look in the mirror again and be happy because of you. I know I will live with you forever. No one will ever accept me because I will always be too thin or too fat. I am fat because of you and you screwed me over for life. You will always dwell secretly inside of me no matter what I look like. I love you and I hate you. I miss you at times and would like to ignore you at other times. What is wrong with me. I want to blame you on skating and on people, but I know its because of my stupid perfectionistic tendencies and my control addiction. I would like to think that I can control you, but I know that I can't.