I Fucking Hate Virginia...
Father Time/Fate/Whoever,
Please, please speed up time for me. I've never wanted to rush my life before because it is already shorter than normal people's but I'm scared my time will expire before I get to do the things that I really want/need to do. I need this year to just fly by. I need this whole year just to pass in 24 hours or less. I need to feel him beside me. I need to wake up with him every morning. I need him to hold me and love me. I need to be his wife.
This distance is tearing me apart inside. It's such a trial to fall asleep alone, on my couch, every night, when I'd rather be beside him. I just want to sleep until I can wake up next to him. At least in my dreams we are together.
I need this.
He's my reward for all the shit I've had to endure in my life, so why can't I have him now? Why can't I? He is my prize, the light at the end of the tunnel. For all the tragedy I've witnessed in my twenty years. He's what fate/karma/God/whatever has given me for it all. But he's still so out of my reach.
I would sell my soul on eBay to get to be with him. Even for one day. Just to kiss his beautiful mouth and to feel the safety of his embrace. I would do anything - give up anything - ANYTHING.
Six months until I see him again. A year until we're together. Fuck. That's so far away. Is it really too much to ask that we be together now? I've cried 3 times tonight just because I just miss him... Every tear burns my eyes like acid.
I love him, more than I can even understand. I will wait, because it's what I have to do, but it's killing me inside. My heart is bleeding.
Half of me is literally missing. Well, not missing, just 1396 miles away in a state he doesn't even want to be in. He wants to come home. He wants it just as much as I do. We deserve this. We deserve to be together. Now. We deserve it.
Please?
Always,
Me... ♥
Please, please speed up time for me. I've never wanted to rush my life before because it is already shorter than normal people's but I'm scared my time will expire before I get to do the things that I really want/need to do. I need this year to just fly by. I need this whole year just to pass in 24 hours or less. I need to feel him beside me. I need to wake up with him every morning. I need him to hold me and love me. I need to be his wife.
This distance is tearing me apart inside. It's such a trial to fall asleep alone, on my couch, every night, when I'd rather be beside him. I just want to sleep until I can wake up next to him. At least in my dreams we are together.
I need this.
He's my reward for all the shit I've had to endure in my life, so why can't I have him now? Why can't I? He is my prize, the light at the end of the tunnel. For all the tragedy I've witnessed in my twenty years. He's what fate/karma/God/whatever has given me for it all. But he's still so out of my reach.
I would sell my soul on eBay to get to be with him. Even for one day. Just to kiss his beautiful mouth and to feel the safety of his embrace. I would do anything - give up anything - ANYTHING.
Six months until I see him again. A year until we're together. Fuck. That's so far away. Is it really too much to ask that we be together now? I've cried 3 times tonight just because I just miss him... Every tear burns my eyes like acid.
I love him, more than I can even understand. I will wait, because it's what I have to do, but it's killing me inside. My heart is bleeding.
Half of me is literally missing. Well, not missing, just 1396 miles away in a state he doesn't even want to be in. He wants to come home. He wants it just as much as I do. We deserve this. We deserve to be together. Now. We deserve it.
Please?
Always,
Me... ♥